Two years ago, my dreams were shattered and I've got nothing to hold on to except for friends and families at my back. My career path was on the verge of collapse. and so much more emotions paired with it that made me despondent. Now that I'm picking up I see that I'm getting there. Still aligned with what I dream to become one day.
I realised a great deal through this whole ordeal. I know that I just have to carry myself with faith and dignity. Temporarily migrate to a world I know would nurture my fragile heart and soul. I did my own version of Eat. Pray. Love. I become whole again but still fragile.
I struggled so much more that I know this time... I know how it is to fall down without any defences available for me to shield on. But I learnt what I needed in the future. I establish plans on how to achieve it. Though I am not yet on my destination and outcome might still be far; Its good to know that I can see positive results. Bits by bits I am getting there.
I realised that no matter how long it will take me, I shall get to the Paradis parfumé and that's all that matters. Now I thank Him for strength He continuously gives me. Call it luck, chances but I know this is grace from God. Finally I learn to appreciate each blessings I get, no matter how small. I know I wouldn't achieve any of these without prayers. I am thankful for what I have now. Each small things in my life. And continue to live for the moment.
And this is the best Christmas present yet to be received.
Wednesday, November 24, 2010
Friday, October 29, 2010
The Bright New Torch
It was all too sudden, I know. The next thing I know I have more than I could wish for. I hope the new Torch will shine brightly and its light won't fade away soon.
The best thing I've got and all features are just too amazing. Will say more in a bit. Am just killing time for my tax class. But bottom line is that me is enormously happy. For a techy guy this has it all. Design meets functionality and perfect platform.
I know i4 is much better but in my opinion this is the best!
And just like the Olympic Torch, my BBT served as the light in the opening of Westfield Sydney :)
me holding the torch!
the new westfield sydney
The best thing I've got and all features are just too amazing. Will say more in a bit. Am just killing time for my tax class. But bottom line is that me is enormously happy. For a techy guy this has it all. Design meets functionality and perfect platform.
I know i4 is much better but in my opinion this is the best!
And just like the Olympic Torch, my BBT served as the light in the opening of Westfield Sydney :)
me holding the torch!
the new westfield sydney
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
Qlfd Strine, I am.
Good vibes just keep on coming. Forget about the slight mishaps. Thinking about what's been happening this past few days/weeks everything seems to be falling where it should be.
As part of my fourth anniversary in Sydney, I have compiled a collage of photos of my Australian adventure.
I began today waiting for my citizenship test. Sat down at Gloria Jeans killing time and reading through this... And I learned a lot. By heart.
And ever since I discovered how to tether my BB to my mac, I enjoy the privilege of internet anywhere with 3G BB. Googled some current updates on politics, legislation and some economic issues. Just to keep me updated. Recently I've been so hooked with Australian news. Thanks to Twitter and Yahoo!7. Also we are obliged to read Financial Review every now and then. Often I get left out in class discussion if I didn't read what's new on the news.
Cut long story short, I was 20 minutes early for my citizenship appointment. The lady who interviewed me is way cool. The other interviewer is a bit of a snob. I mean all of them should conform to a professional manner in dealing with candidates but I think they were too stiff. Mine was a fabulous lady. We chatted about how wonderful weather was and asked about living in the City. After 15 minutes of checking my documents, she gave me a piece of paper and told me to take the test. I know I am well prepared for the test although I only started reading the handbook last night. I have 2 unsure answers but I ended up getting 19 out of 20. Not bad. 5 mins out of 45 mins allotted. It was quick and easy I should say.
Timeframe is about 3 months before the pledge. But as far as I'm concerned, I am now qualified. And pledge is just a formality.
Think about it, I was staying in Sydney for 4 years and never realised I would finally settle here. I thought of just gaining experience but here I am. Residing and living in a spectacular cosmopolitan and multicultural dynamic land.
As part of my fourth anniversary in Sydney, I have compiled a collage of photos of my Australian adventure.
I began today waiting for my citizenship test. Sat down at Gloria Jeans killing time and reading through this... And I learned a lot. By heart.
And ever since I discovered how to tether my BB to my mac, I enjoy the privilege of internet anywhere with 3G BB. Googled some current updates on politics, legislation and some economic issues. Just to keep me updated. Recently I've been so hooked with Australian news. Thanks to Twitter and Yahoo!7. Also we are obliged to read Financial Review every now and then. Often I get left out in class discussion if I didn't read what's new on the news.
Cut long story short, I was 20 minutes early for my citizenship appointment. The lady who interviewed me is way cool. The other interviewer is a bit of a snob. I mean all of them should conform to a professional manner in dealing with candidates but I think they were too stiff. Mine was a fabulous lady. We chatted about how wonderful weather was and asked about living in the City. After 15 minutes of checking my documents, she gave me a piece of paper and told me to take the test. I know I am well prepared for the test although I only started reading the handbook last night. I have 2 unsure answers but I ended up getting 19 out of 20. Not bad. 5 mins out of 45 mins allotted. It was quick and easy I should say.
Timeframe is about 3 months before the pledge. But as far as I'm concerned, I am now qualified. And pledge is just a formality.
Think about it, I was staying in Sydney for 4 years and never realised I would finally settle here. I thought of just gaining experience but here I am. Residing and living in a spectacular cosmopolitan and multicultural dynamic land.
Saturday, October 16, 2010
Blog Action Day: El Agua es Vida
Bit late for this entry as it should have been posted yesterday.
Firstly let me warn you that water is our most precious natural resource. Misuse of it and negligence will lead to problems like drought and indirectly affect climate change.
Drought typically happens in Australia, particularly in South East of Australia. The agricultural sector suffers and decline in rural productivity will eventually felt by the nation as it impacts the economy. It also impacts the quality of water and it increases the risk of bush fires and dust storms.
We also cannot not mention the climate change and what its doing to our environment as each of us has our own social environmental responsibilities to upheld. Otherwise we will see the deterioration of our natural ecosystem balance. And it would not be long 'til we suffer the consequences. We can already somehow see how it slowly affects our climate, i.e., global warming.
I've experienced abundance and scarcity. Back in Manila we use the tabo system (dipper to fix usage of water) and recycle water like use water to wash plates and eventually use it to water plants. There was also a time when we have to go all the way to Camella (nearby neighbourhood) just to get our share of water.
My message is let us do our share in conserving water. Report leaking faucet. Be mindful that we don't abuse its usage. Use machines like laundry and dishwashing effectively.
Just because we have it doesn't mean we are allowed to waste it. Remember water is life.
Firstly let me warn you that water is our most precious natural resource. Misuse of it and negligence will lead to problems like drought and indirectly affect climate change.
Drought typically happens in Australia, particularly in South East of Australia. The agricultural sector suffers and decline in rural productivity will eventually felt by the nation as it impacts the economy. It also impacts the quality of water and it increases the risk of bush fires and dust storms.
We also cannot not mention the climate change and what its doing to our environment as each of us has our own social environmental responsibilities to upheld. Otherwise we will see the deterioration of our natural ecosystem balance. And it would not be long 'til we suffer the consequences. We can already somehow see how it slowly affects our climate, i.e., global warming.
I've experienced abundance and scarcity. Back in Manila we use the tabo system (dipper to fix usage of water) and recycle water like use water to wash plates and eventually use it to water plants. There was also a time when we have to go all the way to Camella (nearby neighbourhood) just to get our share of water.
My message is let us do our share in conserving water. Report leaking faucet. Be mindful that we don't abuse its usage. Use machines like laundry and dishwashing effectively.
Just because we have it doesn't mean we are allowed to waste it. Remember water is life.
One Step Closer
Feels like I just graduated from High School. Just finished my fourth year here in Sydney. Technically its not cos I flew around a bit but basically as far as my application for citizenship is concerned, I'm eligible and that's all that matters I reckon.
So much to hope for. The rebuilding of my career and self has just begun. It won't take a year, maybe 2-3 years to establish an empire and be where I wanna be. But citizenship is a start.
Next Tuesday will be my citizenship appointment and test. but before that I have to struggle with month-end at work and another Tax exam. I always dreaded getting the result of my exams. Bit paranoid but then I realise I got the top mark.
Everything goes well now. I am just living the moment. Climbing the steepest stairs to freedom and life. Soon I will be there and triumph will be all around me.
So much to hope for. The rebuilding of my career and self has just begun. It won't take a year, maybe 2-3 years to establish an empire and be where I wanna be. But citizenship is a start.
Next Tuesday will be my citizenship appointment and test. but before that I have to struggle with month-end at work and another Tax exam. I always dreaded getting the result of my exams. Bit paranoid but then I realise I got the top mark.
Everything goes well now. I am just living the moment. Climbing the steepest stairs to freedom and life. Soon I will be there and triumph will be all around me.
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
^Bad Penguin^
Just like Batman's archenemy. Penguin is an eccentric criminal mastermind known for his shady business dealings. I can just associate her to this super villain.
She doesn't have the decency to know what is within the norm. Plain insensitive if you may. Just don't want to dwell so much on her. But all I can say, what she did. It ended my respect and friendship with her. She's just a nasty old penguin.
chaos without music
when music has been taken out of your daily walks you cannot imagine how horrible it can be. the noise and reality becomes more apparent to the naked eye. thats how our senses are intertwined.
without music life can be so bland and boring. the cost i have to pay for my foolishness. its a pain but i hope the beat will come back soon. renewed or found.
without music life can be so bland and boring. the cost i have to pay for my foolishness. its a pain but i hope the beat will come back soon. renewed or found.
Friday, October 1, 2010
Note to Self: Grow UP and Stop Annoying People
There are things that you never realise that you've done wrong until you heard it from someone. What makes it more disturbing is when you hear it indirectly. I tend to rationalise that the way I normally behave is influenced by how I interact socially. I know for a fact that I've been quite reserved when I am not with the people am not comfortable with. Social space has always been an issue I believe. I rarely trust any random stranger to just spill out the real me.
Personality clashes far too many times and never meant to annoy closest of friends. The way they react on such occasions can be devastating. As my intentions are to please everyone and make them smile. I guess I have to put a fencing barrier and position myself properly.
Just an open note to self. Not in anyway directed to anyone. I probably would think the person won't read this anyway.
Two cents for drawing this up and making my Friday send-off to long-weekend much problematic. I know I just need a drink or two and this will fly-off like a floating balloon.
Personality clashes far too many times and never meant to annoy closest of friends. The way they react on such occasions can be devastating. As my intentions are to please everyone and make them smile. I guess I have to put a fencing barrier and position myself properly.
Just an open note to self. Not in anyway directed to anyone. I probably would think the person won't read this anyway.
Two cents for drawing this up and making my Friday send-off to long-weekend much problematic. I know I just need a drink or two and this will fly-off like a floating balloon.
Thursday, September 30, 2010
i seem to have lost my key
where's the damn keys? So many keys are jumbled in this shoe box that i can't open this fragile item. this has been locked up not so long ago. i shouldn't have secured it but then again it was too delicate to expose on such an early stage.
i don't regret securely holding it and keeping the locked box under my bed. i know for one, it can always be found. but never did i realise that such a long time i would lose the key. the only key that can open something very dear to me that would define the very me. i'm thinking: should i force it open? i reckon not! for it would destroy the outer-being of the secured device.
it is now my duty to tidy up every aspect of the room. the missing key is just around. can be anywhere inside. i'm sure. i just need time to find it... or maybe wait for it to appear.
weird enough. sometimes when u least expect it. and not even looking for it. for some unexplainable force of nature, it will magically present itself.
i don't regret securely holding it and keeping the locked box under my bed. i know for one, it can always be found. but never did i realise that such a long time i would lose the key. the only key that can open something very dear to me that would define the very me. i'm thinking: should i force it open? i reckon not! for it would destroy the outer-being of the secured device.
it is now my duty to tidy up every aspect of the room. the missing key is just around. can be anywhere inside. i'm sure. i just need time to find it... or maybe wait for it to appear.
weird enough. sometimes when u least expect it. and not even looking for it. for some unexplainable force of nature, it will magically present itself.
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
random thoughts
overindulgent, not so good
subconscious always tell me that i shouldn't be carried away too much. but the irony is the more we deprive ourself with something always ends up with doing it again and again. it is repugnant, i believe. some spare buffer wouldn't hurt. sacrifice and discipline are key things I should practice.
another one is influences can play a vital role in pushing u to the limit. it can be hazardous but then again - will power - can be a key driver to avoid this behaviour.
pinoy pride
i know it is already overrated. but i just discovered Charice's enormous talent. i confess that i've been watching her success story every night before i sleep. one after another, until it diversified to other great pinoy talents we have. i.e., Arnel Pineda, PGT finalists, etc. makes me more proud! esp. when I saw Glee last week. she never fails to give me goosebumps! too much power and soul when she sings.
unusually quiet office bores me
office without the big bosses makes it unusually quiet and boring! i've been missing for two days last week. blame it on the stupid weather that gave me colds. but without our dear CEO and CFO - everything is quiet. i have to literally look for something interesting to do. and this brought twittering back to my current vocabulary.
emotionally ready and eager to speed up the 'Project'
only a few knows about the main 'Project', maybe its feasible. but time and chance play vital role in achieving this. inasmuch as I want to be optimistic, I guess it won't happen as expected.
handful of dreams when the 'Big Bang Theory' crystallizes. its free to dream and it gives me something to look forward to. although I reckon it won't happen yet. maybe I'm wrong. but be happy to be proven wrong. at any instance if it really happens then I will be the happiest man on Earth... I mean in Australia. cos lots of people will be happier back home.
to bring back the love... of reading
been too preoccupied from reading heaps of books stacked in my dusty shelf. but lately, I started reading again. only because beach + sun = lay down and read. i hope the passion for reading comes back to me soon. can't wait to shop for new and exciting reads. Glebe bookstores have been calling me badly. like the mannequins in the Shopaholic movie..
I honestly have gazillion thoughts to put in here but I will park them here in my terrible memory bank. lets see if I can still recall by tomorrow
subconscious always tell me that i shouldn't be carried away too much. but the irony is the more we deprive ourself with something always ends up with doing it again and again. it is repugnant, i believe. some spare buffer wouldn't hurt. sacrifice and discipline are key things I should practice.
another one is influences can play a vital role in pushing u to the limit. it can be hazardous but then again - will power - can be a key driver to avoid this behaviour.
pinoy pride
i know it is already overrated. but i just discovered Charice's enormous talent. i confess that i've been watching her success story every night before i sleep. one after another, until it diversified to other great pinoy talents we have. i.e., Arnel Pineda, PGT finalists, etc. makes me more proud! esp. when I saw Glee last week. she never fails to give me goosebumps! too much power and soul when she sings.
unusually quiet office bores me
office without the big bosses makes it unusually quiet and boring! i've been missing for two days last week. blame it on the stupid weather that gave me colds. but without our dear CEO and CFO - everything is quiet. i have to literally look for something interesting to do. and this brought twittering back to my current vocabulary.
emotionally ready and eager to speed up the 'Project'
only a few knows about the main 'Project', maybe its feasible. but time and chance play vital role in achieving this. inasmuch as I want to be optimistic, I guess it won't happen as expected.
handful of dreams when the 'Big Bang Theory' crystallizes. its free to dream and it gives me something to look forward to. although I reckon it won't happen yet. maybe I'm wrong. but be happy to be proven wrong. at any instance if it really happens then I will be the happiest man on Earth... I mean in Australia. cos lots of people will be happier back home.
to bring back the love... of reading
been too preoccupied from reading heaps of books stacked in my dusty shelf. but lately, I started reading again. only because beach + sun = lay down and read. i hope the passion for reading comes back to me soon. can't wait to shop for new and exciting reads. Glebe bookstores have been calling me badly. like the mannequins in the Shopaholic movie..
I honestly have gazillion thoughts to put in here but I will park them here in my terrible memory bank. lets see if I can still recall by tomorrow
Monday, September 27, 2010
Throw a Rock ~ and Break the Dry Ice
perhaps this is the quietest i've ever been
its dry and i can't explain it any simpler.
the once colourful and fruitful days have died down
not that i don't do anything out of the ordinary
but lets just say creativity's all been gone.
days pass by so fast, also u just realise how quick season changes
and i can't feel i am living it, i want to pause this routinary boring moments
and live it according to my dreams and how i wanted it to be - in an orderly fashion.
but reality is: it takes supernatural strength, ability &inspiration to make things happen
and of course the right time - when the universe conspires with you.
i know its all mushy and seems like i'm going nowhere with this
but this is how i feel. that i am revolving through dreams but going round the circles
i need a force that will adversely change my direction
it can be a gamble, risking it to a different way
but at least life gets bit exciting and it complements my desires.
its dry and i can't explain it any simpler.
the once colourful and fruitful days have died down
not that i don't do anything out of the ordinary
but lets just say creativity's all been gone.
days pass by so fast, also u just realise how quick season changes
and i can't feel i am living it, i want to pause this routinary boring moments
and live it according to my dreams and how i wanted it to be - in an orderly fashion.
but reality is: it takes supernatural strength, ability &inspiration to make things happen
and of course the right time - when the universe conspires with you.
i know its all mushy and seems like i'm going nowhere with this
but this is how i feel. that i am revolving through dreams but going round the circles
i need a force that will adversely change my direction
it can be a gamble, risking it to a different way
but at least life gets bit exciting and it complements my desires.
Friday, September 17, 2010
The B word
Everything becomes B!
First one I reckon is busy. Lately I've got no time to put thoughts into words. Consumed by chaos but its riveting and more often it can be boring too. You just have to know how to deal with it. With a sense of creativity.
Secondly, Bally has been the theme. I just love this brand now. The red stripe is just too classy.
How about Big? Yeah, bigger tummy! Caused by consumption of Beer and Bacon! haha Now I'm just mumbling anything that starts with B.
At the end I just want to B more organised. Take me out of this chaotic world I'm living in. Sort is such a hard verb to do. I need my obsessive-compulsive mode to return to an orderly peaceful rondzkee world.
First one I reckon is busy. Lately I've got no time to put thoughts into words. Consumed by chaos but its riveting and more often it can be boring too. You just have to know how to deal with it. With a sense of creativity.
Secondly, Bally has been the theme. I just love this brand now. The red stripe is just too classy.
How about Big? Yeah, bigger tummy! Caused by consumption of Beer and Bacon! haha Now I'm just mumbling anything that starts with B.
At the end I just want to B more organised. Take me out of this chaotic world I'm living in. Sort is such a hard verb to do. I need my obsessive-compulsive mode to return to an orderly peaceful rondzkee world.
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
Untitled
A lot has happened since the last time I put an entry to this blog. For one, I started my uni. I guess small status messages on FB would show that I felt the excitement. Feels few years younger hanging out at UTS. Though I haven't had the time to literally open my legislation books and start memorising sections of the law, I felt a certain good vibes - that I am on the right track.
Last weekend I was skiing at Perisher Blue. Flashback happened, I know it was a misfortune but that will always keep me reminded to put my ego down. Stay focus and work within my means.
These past few weeks had been hell. Always so much to do at work but then again, the performance shows how efficient my team did. Hope all goes well and we shall meet our deadlines.
A week before I had splendid time at Oxland. Not to mention good vibes again. But not to keep my hopes up. I should know better. Don't want to create frustration and whine about it later on.
**Might be worth saying that I am losing track of what I'm writing here. But thoughts just pop out whenever.
Lodge my tax return by the way. It was ages ago but just wanted to say that I had a good one. The very first of its kind, I want to welcome Brooks to the crowd. Feels overwhelming at first. And I take it with pride. Lets just say that I have this enormous power and glamour whenever I have 'em.
Then again, I got a new red awesome sunnies. A way to welcome Spring, I guess. It will not be long and I will turn another year on my age calendar. Just a number, yeah yeah! but it always been a clear reminder asking me if I have reached what I wanted at this spectrum. All I can say is... I'm getting there. Soon enough, it will be another year to celebrate. Look back and smile. As the sun always shine back at us. Letting us know that the sweat it produces can be worth it. After all the nice weather is yet to come.
Last weekend I was skiing at Perisher Blue. Flashback happened, I know it was a misfortune but that will always keep me reminded to put my ego down. Stay focus and work within my means.
These past few weeks had been hell. Always so much to do at work but then again, the performance shows how efficient my team did. Hope all goes well and we shall meet our deadlines.
A week before I had splendid time at Oxland. Not to mention good vibes again. But not to keep my hopes up. I should know better. Don't want to create frustration and whine about it later on.
**Might be worth saying that I am losing track of what I'm writing here. But thoughts just pop out whenever.
Lodge my tax return by the way. It was ages ago but just wanted to say that I had a good one. The very first of its kind, I want to welcome Brooks to the crowd. Feels overwhelming at first. And I take it with pride. Lets just say that I have this enormous power and glamour whenever I have 'em.
Then again, I got a new red awesome sunnies. A way to welcome Spring, I guess. It will not be long and I will turn another year on my age calendar. Just a number, yeah yeah! but it always been a clear reminder asking me if I have reached what I wanted at this spectrum. All I can say is... I'm getting there. Soon enough, it will be another year to celebrate. Look back and smile. As the sun always shine back at us. Letting us know that the sweat it produces can be worth it. After all the nice weather is yet to come.
Monday, June 28, 2010
Its June and its winter!
Passing through the chilly winds, I feel desperate to seek shelter. Temporarily on the hands of a cafe. I rummaged through the magazines and newspapers available but nothing seems to interest me. Fifa is all around the harbour and it keeps me entertained besides work. It all goes routinary at some point. But still I continue to seek for something interesting. But nothing satisfies my urges. The lowest pit that I've submerged into, I need to go out and make it happen.
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
Analysing Me
Finally, I've had the courage to remove the cobwebs that has been blocking me for a week. And to top that, t'was raining so hard and like my housemate feels - I am just plain miserable.
Now that little by little, we get some sunshine. Let's bring on the activities. Let's go live life as it should be lived.
I know I owe so much stories to tell. Blame it on the poetic influences I've been flooding my blog recently...
Chapter 1: Pyrmont Life
One can never find a perfect place to be, but I guess I found it. Can you imagine that I'm walking to my office every single day. Walking to cafés, cheap uni resto's, fish market. Walking to the City. Pub, Clubs, Night life. Shopping, malls. Endless possibilities. Only thing missing is the beach, but who cares really. At least I'm Tsunami-safe. haha
One can never ask for a perfect housemate. Sandra's the coolest. Teaches me how to clean. Has the energy to uplift my boring days. Appreciates simple things like when I cook (which seldom happens, really) or clean my godforsaken toilet. Teaches me how to do proper laundry. Not just the throw and wait technique I've learned on my own. Also taught me how to do proper ironing. And most of all, she can endure my mood swings. Or maybe I haven't had one cos she's just plain amazing.
Chapter 2: My well-deserved 13-day Holiday
I honestly thought I wouldn't be allowed to go on a holiday considering I barely reached my third month on this new work. I felt extremely lucky that they allow me to get negative leaves. I guess I have to thank my charm as well and I did get approval from the CEO herself.
Holiday was a rush. Finally, I've seen my family. Spent time with them and though it pains me to leave after 8 days, my heart remains and I will always be going back whenever possible. I hate to say that I do have regrets on decisions I made but it's all for the best. I know they understand that I am still looking for a purpose that's why I still reside in Australia.
Part of my holiday was to also search for a missing piece of life-long puzzle I am trying to recreate. I thought I have found it. Even brought it back in Sydney for me to know if it will eventually fit. But sadly I was wrong. Felt agitated. But still I wouldn't say that I completely wasted my time in search of that piece. Sometimes you search for gold knowing that it glitters and might good look on your masterpiece. But later in life, you will realise that discovering the very essence of the puzzle will be the key in finding the suitable piece.
That short stay was the longest. This paradox help me value every second of my stay home. Frustrations were soon compensated with the quality time spent with my loved ones. Nothing beats that.
Singapore was another venue. Relax. Shop. Eat. Though coupled with budget constraints. It feels refreshing how little money spent can bring happiness to a rehabilitated me. How I constrict myself with limited spending. This time I value every cent. But still little things can be valuable when shared with the bestest friends who's there with you on your escapades.
Chapter 3: Storm and the Rainbow
Upon my return, I was beset with deep sorrow as I adjust myself from the humidity and Summer's heat from the tropics to the winter greeting upon my arrival in Sydney. To make it worse, it was raining all throughout the week. Honestly, I was not at my best during those period of time. Apart from restrained physical activities. My mood was at an all time low. Stuffed with work from office. Feels empty cos it seems that everything seems to be falling apart.
But at the end of every storm, a rainbow always comes along. The beauty after every destruction is unexplainable. Looking outside the vast Sydney skyscrapers stood a magnificent rainbow, showing off all its radiant colours. And I believed that its a sign to finally go on with life. Continue reaching for the dreams that was temporarily taken aside.
On this journey, I want to thank Roi and Sandra for being there when I needed them. You guys rocked my world!
Chapter 4: Pushing the 'Play' button
I muster the courage and conviction to achieve some goals. I will live each day aspiring for an outcome. Time to finally push the 'play' button once again. Live life with zest. And on my conquest. I shall say that this with pride: "I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith".
Now that little by little, we get some sunshine. Let's bring on the activities. Let's go live life as it should be lived.
I know I owe so much stories to tell. Blame it on the poetic influences I've been flooding my blog recently...
Chapter 1: Pyrmont Life
One can never find a perfect place to be, but I guess I found it. Can you imagine that I'm walking to my office every single day. Walking to cafés, cheap uni resto's, fish market. Walking to the City. Pub, Clubs, Night life. Shopping, malls. Endless possibilities. Only thing missing is the beach, but who cares really. At least I'm Tsunami-safe. haha
One can never ask for a perfect housemate. Sandra's the coolest. Teaches me how to clean. Has the energy to uplift my boring days. Appreciates simple things like when I cook (which seldom happens, really) or clean my godforsaken toilet. Teaches me how to do proper laundry. Not just the throw and wait technique I've learned on my own. Also taught me how to do proper ironing. And most of all, she can endure my mood swings. Or maybe I haven't had one cos she's just plain amazing.
Chapter 2: My well-deserved 13-day Holiday
I honestly thought I wouldn't be allowed to go on a holiday considering I barely reached my third month on this new work. I felt extremely lucky that they allow me to get negative leaves. I guess I have to thank my charm as well and I did get approval from the CEO herself.
Holiday was a rush. Finally, I've seen my family. Spent time with them and though it pains me to leave after 8 days, my heart remains and I will always be going back whenever possible. I hate to say that I do have regrets on decisions I made but it's all for the best. I know they understand that I am still looking for a purpose that's why I still reside in Australia.
Part of my holiday was to also search for a missing piece of life-long puzzle I am trying to recreate. I thought I have found it. Even brought it back in Sydney for me to know if it will eventually fit. But sadly I was wrong. Felt agitated. But still I wouldn't say that I completely wasted my time in search of that piece. Sometimes you search for gold knowing that it glitters and might good look on your masterpiece. But later in life, you will realise that discovering the very essence of the puzzle will be the key in finding the suitable piece.
That short stay was the longest. This paradox help me value every second of my stay home. Frustrations were soon compensated with the quality time spent with my loved ones. Nothing beats that.
Singapore was another venue. Relax. Shop. Eat. Though coupled with budget constraints. It feels refreshing how little money spent can bring happiness to a rehabilitated me. How I constrict myself with limited spending. This time I value every cent. But still little things can be valuable when shared with the bestest friends who's there with you on your escapades.
Chapter 3: Storm and the Rainbow
Upon my return, I was beset with deep sorrow as I adjust myself from the humidity and Summer's heat from the tropics to the winter greeting upon my arrival in Sydney. To make it worse, it was raining all throughout the week. Honestly, I was not at my best during those period of time. Apart from restrained physical activities. My mood was at an all time low. Stuffed with work from office. Feels empty cos it seems that everything seems to be falling apart.
But at the end of every storm, a rainbow always comes along. The beauty after every destruction is unexplainable. Looking outside the vast Sydney skyscrapers stood a magnificent rainbow, showing off all its radiant colours. And I believed that its a sign to finally go on with life. Continue reaching for the dreams that was temporarily taken aside.
On this journey, I want to thank Roi and Sandra for being there when I needed them. You guys rocked my world!
Chapter 4: Pushing the 'Play' button
I muster the courage and conviction to achieve some goals. I will live each day aspiring for an outcome. Time to finally push the 'play' button once again. Live life with zest. And on my conquest. I shall say that this with pride: "I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith".
Saturday, June 5, 2010
Shine On Me
The storm had passed. The sky is much clearer. All the pouring rain had finally stopped. Just for a moment, I want to see the sun shine on me again. I just want to feel spellbound into eternity of the paradise perfume. One day, it will.
Thursday, June 3, 2010
Paradis parfumé
Comme vous êtes loin, paradis parfumé,
Où sous un clair azur tout n'est qu'amour et joie,
Où tout ce que l'on aime est digne d'être aimé,
Où dans la volupté pure le coeur se noie!
Comme vous êtes loin, paradis parfumé!
(taken from Moesta et Errabunda by Charles Baudelaire)
* * * * *
and thats where I want to be.
waiting for someone to take me there.
Où sous un clair azur tout n'est qu'amour et joie,
Où tout ce que l'on aime est digne d'être aimé,
Où dans la volupté pure le coeur se noie!
Comme vous êtes loin, paradis parfumé!
(taken from Moesta et Errabunda by Charles Baudelaire)
* * * * *
and thats where I want to be.
waiting for someone to take me there.
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
Troubled Traveller
Ticking of the clock, time stood still
Seems ages and it doesn't want to reveal
Let me be preoccupied, I need a diversion
I just dont want to deal with it, I guess.
Riveting as this phase can be
It is coupled with risks and uncertainties
Longing for something that might not exist
I stand in crossroads not knowing where to go.
I finally decided to wait for a bus
and i will take the backseat, I need serenity.
Then sleep in the mystifying aura of melancholy
Drive me to the place where I am destined to be.
Seems ages and it doesn't want to reveal
Let me be preoccupied, I need a diversion
I just dont want to deal with it, I guess.
Riveting as this phase can be
It is coupled with risks and uncertainties
Longing for something that might not exist
I stand in crossroads not knowing where to go.
I finally decided to wait for a bus
and i will take the backseat, I need serenity.
Then sleep in the mystifying aura of melancholy
Drive me to the place where I am destined to be.
Si Tu Me Olvidas
Quiero que sepas
una cosa.
Tú sabes cómo es esto:
si miro
la luna de cristal, la rama roja
del lento otoño en mi ventana,
si toco
junto al fuego
la impalpable ceniza
o el arrugado cuerpo de la leña,
todo me lleva a ti,
como si todo lo que existe:
aromas, luz, metales,
fueran pequeños barcos que navegan
hacia las islas tuyas que me aguardan.
Ahora bien,
si poco a poco dejas de quererme
dejaré de quererte poco a poco.
Si de pronto
me olvidas
no me busques,
que ya te habré olvidado.
Si consideras largo y loco
el viento de banderas
que pasa por mi vida
y te decides
a dejarme a la orilla
del corazón en que tengo raÃces,
piensa
que en esa dÃa,
a esa hora
levantaré los brazos
y saldrán mis raÃces
a buscar otra tierra.
Pero
si cada dÃa,
cada hora,
sientes que a mà estás destinada
con dulzura implacable,
si cada dÃa sube
una flor a tus labios a buscarme,
ay amor mÃo, ay mÃa,
en mà todo ese fuego se repite,
en mà nada se apaga ni se olvida,
mi amor se nutre de tu amor, amada,
y mientras vivas estará en tus brazos
sin salir de los mÃos.
- Pablo Neruda
* * * * *
The magnificence of this poem captured me completely. And I shall wait and hope that forgotten is a forgotten word.
una cosa.
Tú sabes cómo es esto:
si miro
la luna de cristal, la rama roja
del lento otoño en mi ventana,
si toco
junto al fuego
la impalpable ceniza
o el arrugado cuerpo de la leña,
todo me lleva a ti,
como si todo lo que existe:
aromas, luz, metales,
fueran pequeños barcos que navegan
hacia las islas tuyas que me aguardan.
Ahora bien,
si poco a poco dejas de quererme
dejaré de quererte poco a poco.
Si de pronto
me olvidas
no me busques,
que ya te habré olvidado.
Si consideras largo y loco
el viento de banderas
que pasa por mi vida
y te decides
a dejarme a la orilla
del corazón en que tengo raÃces,
piensa
que en esa dÃa,
a esa hora
levantaré los brazos
y saldrán mis raÃces
a buscar otra tierra.
Pero
si cada dÃa,
cada hora,
sientes que a mà estás destinada
con dulzura implacable,
si cada dÃa sube
una flor a tus labios a buscarme,
ay amor mÃo, ay mÃa,
en mà todo ese fuego se repite,
en mà nada se apaga ni se olvida,
mi amor se nutre de tu amor, amada,
y mientras vivas estará en tus brazos
sin salir de los mÃos.
- Pablo Neruda
* * * * *
The magnificence of this poem captured me completely. And I shall wait and hope that forgotten is a forgotten word.
Thursday, May 27, 2010
the happy heart
The heart is beautiful
And holds worlds of wonder
And loves endlessly
The heart is beautiful
It beats as it gets
closer to its dreams
Your heart is dear
Hold onto your heart
Feel it lift you
from your sorrows
Be happy today
and tomorrow.
-Morgan Green
And holds worlds of wonder
And loves endlessly
The heart is beautiful
It beats as it gets
closer to its dreams
Your heart is dear
Hold onto your heart
Feel it lift you
from your sorrows
Be happy today
and tomorrow.
-Morgan Green
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
the rain and the power of the majestic sun
though it seems rainy and uncertain. underneath the heavy clouds there's always a sun that will shine its way through. thank you mister sun, its much clearer now. and i shall wait for fate to bring the one i've been waiting for forever.
* * * * * *
great things that happened today:
- had lunch with my mum together with the kids and their yaya;
- had finally bought magic sing cord and now i can pursue my singing career;
- had nice massage at Wensha, damn! money's worth it;
- had seen HCTB movie finally and it was fabulous! LMAO all the time; and most of all
- had ended the night perfectly with hopes and dreams still burning in my heart.
even when it rained and it poured heavily, there's always something good that comes along.
XS.
take back what i said on two earlier blogs. definitely worth it.
* * * * * *
great things that happened today:
- had lunch with my mum together with the kids and their yaya;
- had finally bought magic sing cord and now i can pursue my singing career;
- had nice massage at Wensha, damn! money's worth it;
- had seen HCTB movie finally and it was fabulous! LMAO all the time; and most of all
- had ended the night perfectly with hopes and dreams still burning in my heart.
even when it rained and it poured heavily, there's always something good that comes along.
XS.
take back what i said on two earlier blogs. definitely worth it.
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
last chance
last day of going out. finally i can join the kids together with my mum. but its raining for crying out loud. still i've got heaps of things i needed to buy. but on second thought. i might not be able to anyway. rather than running out of money when i go to SG. lets just be spontaneous and let it flow. i'll be okay.
tomorrow's my last night in manila. and i should stay at home. so this is it then.
tomorrow's my last night in manila. and i should stay at home. so this is it then.
Monday, May 24, 2010
its ticking...
matters unknown, do we still have time? i cant read it. probably i need to visit my eye doctor. few days to go. i hate to leave things hanging. if i can unfeel what i feel. i would do it. sometimes not sure if its worth taking the risk. you go on a path where each shade becomes unclear, grey and i do ask myself, am i really colourblind? i know its ticking, should i turn it loose? or should i just stop breathing and it would all go away. a predicament that i don't really want to be in. it sucks but maybe fate has brought me here.
Saturday, May 22, 2010
the anxious sponge
sometimes our soul is like a piece of sponge. it longs for something to absorb. i kept mine near a sink with a broken faucet. maybe fate has brought it here. still i am minding that any moment the sink might be flooded and my sponge might be filled with water. i expected it to fully absorb the pouring water. but the faucet seems to ignore the mere presence of the sponge. just lying close within reach. waiting anxiously. bit of moist started to appear on all sides of the sponge. but still it is longing to be fully immersed in the leaking faucet's water.
Thursday, May 20, 2010
Humidity makes me "Burst in Flames"
what is it that makes us shrewd? stupidity just goes under my skin and it so irritates me. vent it out, let it all out. at the end, nothing you can't do about it. accept it and move on.
humidity, partly is to blame. all e-fans on me. I guess flying the whole day made me exhausted and didn't care about mossies or the humidity. but going to SMB in the middle of the afternoon is just plain foolish. I had to endure the bid of sweats in my brow. haven't accomplished anything so far. good luck and the days are counting. 7 more to go, i hate it.
humidity, partly is to blame. all e-fans on me. I guess flying the whole day made me exhausted and didn't care about mossies or the humidity. but going to SMB in the middle of the afternoon is just plain foolish. I had to endure the bid of sweats in my brow. haven't accomplished anything so far. good luck and the days are counting. 7 more to go, i hate it.
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Anticipation and Excitement
I can't believe that I will be going home after nearly a year. I left Manila still troubled on how I am going to find my way to the direction that would make me happy. It was a struggle and the things that I've been longing to happen did not immediately emerge. It took some time, effort and patience before it slowly materialised.
Now that I'm heading back home for eight short days. I have to make a difference. Inasmuch as I wanted to plan ahead. I would want to remain spontaneous. It differs from the previous times I normally go home. This time I've got limited resources, both time and money. So I shall endeavour to find ways to seek happiness in priceless ways.
I won't deny that I feel this sense of excitement. The feeling is indescribable especially when you were preoccupied with so much things and the day suddenly arrives.
On another note, it was my first time seating on the Upper Deck of SG's A380. Its much better than the Main Deck, simply because its isolated. I was lucky enough to move to a cluster of seats, which was not occupied. Hence, I can sit like I am on business class (without the Champagne, of course).
Now that I'm heading back home for eight short days. I have to make a difference. Inasmuch as I wanted to plan ahead. I would want to remain spontaneous. It differs from the previous times I normally go home. This time I've got limited resources, both time and money. So I shall endeavour to find ways to seek happiness in priceless ways.
I won't deny that I feel this sense of excitement. The feeling is indescribable especially when you were preoccupied with so much things and the day suddenly arrives.
On another note, it was my first time seating on the Upper Deck of SG's A380. Its much better than the Main Deck, simply because its isolated. I was lucky enough to move to a cluster of seats, which was not occupied. Hence, I can sit like I am on business class (without the Champagne, of course).
Saturday, May 8, 2010
the irreversible spell
it dawned on me that the consequences of our actions would impact our lives in subtle ways that affects our aspirations.
the fragments of a broken glass that shattered from an adverse force might later bleed the soles of our sensitive feet.
unmistaken that we thoroughly removed the debris of the wreckage, the unseen could even hurt us more. deeper.
later on we realise what seemingly we should have done.
but its too late as the irreversible spell can harm us in ways we have not fathomed it to be.
the fragments of a broken glass that shattered from an adverse force might later bleed the soles of our sensitive feet.
unmistaken that we thoroughly removed the debris of the wreckage, the unseen could even hurt us more. deeper.
later on we realise what seemingly we should have done.
but its too late as the irreversible spell can harm us in ways we have not fathomed it to be.
Thursday, May 6, 2010
An Opportunity?
It has been two months of working with this new role and can I just tell you that the passion still burns. Given that I have been enjoying my work and still a lot of promises of growth. I just couldn't let it go. Not just yet.
I received an email from my French boss and he's been telling me about a better opportunity. I have to think twice. Yet again the pay is better. On the other hand I have already built my reputation with the current job. I couldn't just abandon ship. And it is against my own professional ethics. Or so I think it is.
But I always remember that opportunities only knock but once. I let my instinct decide for me then. Hence I said I am interested in discussing this job further. Just what 'Blink' taught me. The stupid book has some sense, I reckon. Might as well utilise what I've learned before completely throwing it in the bin.
Let us cross the bridge when we get there. At this point, the first step is to entertain the idea of a brighter road. And I shall completely step out of this gloomy cobwebs of uncertainties.
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I received an email from my French boss and he's been telling me about a better opportunity. I have to think twice. Yet again the pay is better. On the other hand I have already built my reputation with the current job. I couldn't just abandon ship. And it is against my own professional ethics. Or so I think it is.
But I always remember that opportunities only knock but once. I let my instinct decide for me then. Hence I said I am interested in discussing this job further. Just what 'Blink' taught me. The stupid book has some sense, I reckon. Might as well utilise what I've learned before completely throwing it in the bin.
Let us cross the bridge when we get there. At this point, the first step is to entertain the idea of a brighter road. And I shall completely step out of this gloomy cobwebs of uncertainties.
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Saturday, April 24, 2010
Complete Freedom
A breather, really.
Always something that bothers me.
Haunts me every night.
Last night it scared the hell out of me.
What they have done is completely unconscionable.
I've been meaning to completely move.
Resolve discrepancies thats has always been unknown.
Got a new one and i feel better.
More prospects and hoping for a brighter care free banking.
But still got something evil tucked under my sleeves.
Always something that bothers me.
Haunts me every night.
Last night it scared the hell out of me.
What they have done is completely unconscionable.
I've been meaning to completely move.
Resolve discrepancies thats has always been unknown.
Got a new one and i feel better.
More prospects and hoping for a brighter care free banking.
But still got something evil tucked under my sleeves.
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
echoes from the distant shore
waves splashing incessantly
as i was sitting on the shore
it pulled me away and i began to drift farther
towards the limitless vast of the sea
not minding what i had left out
i rummaged an unchartered territory
feeling the adventure of this new found being
i have quenched and found the joys from within
as i was sitting on the shore
it pulled me away and i began to drift farther
towards the limitless vast of the sea
not minding what i had left out
i rummaged an unchartered territory
feeling the adventure of this new found being
i have quenched and found the joys from within
Sunday, April 11, 2010
mission: self-reconnaissance
i push harder
it wont budge a bit
the weight i am carrying
i just cant fathom.
i cant believe i am at this place
still floundering helplessly
to make it work
seemingly inconceivable.
all efforts are futile
no logical reason why
no fusion to help me on this struggle
no reassurance. nothing.
it wont budge a bit
the weight i am carrying
i just cant fathom.
i cant believe i am at this place
still floundering helplessly
to make it work
seemingly inconceivable.
all efforts are futile
no logical reason why
no fusion to help me on this struggle
no reassurance. nothing.
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
untitled ii
A lot has changed since last time I put an entry to my website. I've been handling the pressure of a new role, managing my PR on both old and new superiors, and of course not missing out on the fun side to keep me sane.
17 days can be that long really but here are some points worth sharing:
Finally settled in Pyrmont, half of my boxes were opened but I am still stressed on where to put the rest of my stuff;
The 'Takeovers' arrived but still beset with hardships as I struggle double jobs. Let's just say its pro-bono service and to uplift my reputation;
Easter break. Time to reflect, revive and unstress.
Finally, I've booked my short-trip home. My uber excitement can't be explained. So my one-week stay in Manila would be the quickest escape from work before the surge of busy season takes place.
Twingeing of my left foot which was caused by a quick zap of chair on my toenail. I kissed it and still praying that my toenail will survive the horrific encounter.
Going back to reading. The mood to read resurfaced when my friend lent me her book. Look me in the Eye is the title. Very touching.
Movie mania is still up. Been watching every Tues still. Latest one i saw was 'Shutter Island'. I like it. Did a review on my FB page.
I lost my Prada sunnies and it sucks. big time.
My creative mind vanished alongside with logic and reason. The obvious evidence is - the first time I posted 'Untitled' after another.
17 days can be that long really but here are some points worth sharing:
Sunday, March 21, 2010
untitled
i've been longing to make things happen. well, it doesn't take one click of a button nor will it take you just one or two wipes of an oil lamp for everything to come your way. merely believing and dreaming sometimes keep you closer to what you've been aspiring for. a day will come when i look back and say that i did it. i had made it through.
a scar will always be there as a reminder of a bitter past. shaken by the monstrosities of events that led me to crawl up once again. i trod lightly but with conviction. all the confidence that i can muster. keeping myself afloat as massive waves come past me. i will survive yet another hurdle. now i am waiting for the vikings to capture me and take me to a land where dreams come true.
a scar will always be there as a reminder of a bitter past. shaken by the monstrosities of events that led me to crawl up once again. i trod lightly but with conviction. all the confidence that i can muster. keeping myself afloat as massive waves come past me. i will survive yet another hurdle. now i am waiting for the vikings to capture me and take me to a land where dreams come true.
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
Newbie Me
Alright so I haven't blogged too often. I should have a good reason not to. For one, I am lazy and there's no excuse. I owe so much to this seven-character site. Depressed times, reading through it can give me strength to carry on.
So what's new?
New Role
I got the contract and signed it today. Its much easier for me. I don't have to do encoding or prepare reconciliations myself. This role gives me a more supervisor function. I have 8 staff with me. Not really directly reporting to me, but I have the chance to review their work.
Also this new role will give me a chance to be involved with the auditors. Something really strange cos I used to be one. I still haven't decided if I will go for the terror mode. Or be myself, good ol' friendly self. It depends I guess on how they will approach me.
New Company
I would like to say that its a New Company but really it isn't because its still part of the whole 'Group'. Not legally though but the major stockholder is. Its also on the same building as before, only the floor changed. And instead of staying in a room, I will be staying within the rest of the staff.
New Apartment / New Housemate
Something I am really looking forward to. For one, I would be staying in Pyrmont, which I really been dreaming of since I arrived. Not technically, because my heart would still want to stay near the beach or most ideally a beach house apartment. I would be living with Madam Sandra, who is a close friend of mine. She's a friend of a friend of a friend. In short my third-degree friend. Niko's colleague back in Phils came to Sydney last year around September. He introduced us to Alvin, which is a close friend of Jhen. Jhen's a good friend of Sandra. So actually its to the fourth-level if you really think about it.
New Salary
I got a salary increase would you believe it? After my boss said that he would put me in the same level of salary as I was doing with Clear Care, I was flustered. Nothing I can do about it, really. I don't have much negotiating power. I really have to get CA/CPA qualification!! Anyway, then the other day he said that he would consider me for XX amount. And I said that is reasonable.
End result, happy happy! This actually justified my moving to a brand new place, near the city. This could increase my saving capability. And finally be able to afford my tuition for uni. I hope so.
~~~~~~~
Let's digress. Yesterday I was so sad that I wasn't able to get my Ben & Jerry's. Oh yes, I was craving for it badly. Blame it on the FB ad. Today, it was out of my mind but while I was walking back home. I thought about the stress I had for this day. I was working on two companies for two weeks now. So I decided to quickly walk my way to the paradise called 'Deli for your Belly'. I was literally running wearing my business clothes just to catch the 6pm cutoff. But before that I have to walk back home, get my wallet and drop some office mails. I ended up at the Deli by 5:59pm only to find that it was already closed. I was so frustrated and settled for the second best, Connoisseurs' Chocolate Obsession. Not bad.
So what's new?
New Role
I got the contract and signed it today. Its much easier for me. I don't have to do encoding or prepare reconciliations myself. This role gives me a more supervisor function. I have 8 staff with me. Not really directly reporting to me, but I have the chance to review their work.
Also this new role will give me a chance to be involved with the auditors. Something really strange cos I used to be one. I still haven't decided if I will go for the terror mode. Or be myself, good ol' friendly self. It depends I guess on how they will approach me.
New Company
I would like to say that its a New Company but really it isn't because its still part of the whole 'Group'. Not legally though but the major stockholder is. Its also on the same building as before, only the floor changed. And instead of staying in a room, I will be staying within the rest of the staff.
New Apartment / New Housemate
Something I am really looking forward to. For one, I would be staying in Pyrmont, which I really been dreaming of since I arrived. Not technically, because my heart would still want to stay near the beach or most ideally a beach house apartment. I would be living with Madam Sandra, who is a close friend of mine. She's a friend of a friend of a friend. In short my third-degree friend. Niko's colleague back in Phils came to Sydney last year around September. He introduced us to Alvin, which is a close friend of Jhen. Jhen's a good friend of Sandra. So actually its to the fourth-level if you really think about it.
New Salary
I got a salary increase would you believe it? After my boss said that he would put me in the same level of salary as I was doing with Clear Care, I was flustered. Nothing I can do about it, really. I don't have much negotiating power. I really have to get CA/CPA qualification!! Anyway, then the other day he said that he would consider me for XX amount. And I said that is reasonable.
End result, happy happy! This actually justified my moving to a brand new place, near the city. This could increase my saving capability. And finally be able to afford my tuition for uni. I hope so.
~~~~~~~
Let's digress. Yesterday I was so sad that I wasn't able to get my Ben & Jerry's. Oh yes, I was craving for it badly. Blame it on the FB ad. Today, it was out of my mind but while I was walking back home. I thought about the stress I had for this day. I was working on two companies for two weeks now. So I decided to quickly walk my way to the paradise called 'Deli for your Belly'. I was literally running wearing my business clothes just to catch the 6pm cutoff. But before that I have to walk back home, get my wallet and drop some office mails. I ended up at the Deli by 5:59pm only to find that it was already closed. I was so frustrated and settled for the second best, Connoisseurs' Chocolate Obsession. Not bad.
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
Not afraid to shine...
This is it. I have been given a very important task and this will be a key role for me in the Commerce World. I had mentioned before that I would be joining a new team in Strathfield. Yes, that's the new company I am working for.
The Financial Controller left and now its is my time to shine. The designation hasn't been formalised yet. But still it keeps me closer to that role, at least.
I will not dwell much on specifics as I have just started today. My thoughts are of course, it feels good to lead once again. I have a team of 6. And I am reviewing processes and improving month-end reports and Appendix 4D. I would then be closely be working with the CFO and of course, the auditors at HY and YE. Might be a challenge cos there's a 360-turn from the culture from Clear Care. But then again, it would be easy for me to deal with them cos I have good inter-personal skills, so i think.
Hooray for me! I can see a brighter future ahead now. Still keeping my fingers crossed.
The Financial Controller left and now its is my time to shine. The designation hasn't been formalised yet. But still it keeps me closer to that role, at least.
I will not dwell much on specifics as I have just started today. My thoughts are of course, it feels good to lead once again. I have a team of 6. And I am reviewing processes and improving month-end reports and Appendix 4D. I would then be closely be working with the CFO and of course, the auditors at HY and YE. Might be a challenge cos there's a 360-turn from the culture from Clear Care. But then again, it would be easy for me to deal with them cos I have good inter-personal skills, so i think.
Hooray for me! I can see a brighter future ahead now. Still keeping my fingers crossed.
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
New role, new life.
In a weeks time I will be performing internal audit function. Not that I don't really like it. But back in external audit days, I hated business processes. As I venture into the Commerce World, I have been paying particular attention on the control environment. For one, the company I was working for needs an overhaul in its processes. It will be a challenge as I take this role.
Similarly it would be ideal if I take certain precautionary steps in overhauling me. Imposing certain things to make things smoother. I am looking forward to greater responsibilities. I am redefining myself as well.
C'mon. Bring it on. And I am ready to take the plunge.
Similarly it would be ideal if I take certain precautionary steps in overhauling me. Imposing certain things to make things smoother. I am looking forward to greater responsibilities. I am redefining myself as well.
C'mon. Bring it on. And I am ready to take the plunge.
Sunday, February 28, 2010
the last day of summer
It's too bad that Tsunami warnings are all throughout NSW beaches. They have to close it for safety purposes. I was planning on spending a good sunny Sunday on the beach.
Well, I had a great time with friends at Mardi Gras last night. Too bad we didnt get to hangout longer through the night in Oxford. But at at least we did get a nice dinner at Encasa.
The past few days had been one of the loneliest. I've been alone for most of the time. It has not been compensated with Badminton Saturdays nor with Late Night Thursdays or Cheap Tuesdays. I was just feeling a bit strange. Sometimes it would feel really strange but it happens. Maybe its a male PMS. rofl. And all I wanted is to have a chance to read a book in the beach... I guess its far-fetched idea. Oh well...
Well, I had a great time with friends at Mardi Gras last night. Too bad we didnt get to hangout longer through the night in Oxford. But at at least we did get a nice dinner at Encasa.
The past few days had been one of the loneliest. I've been alone for most of the time. It has not been compensated with Badminton Saturdays nor with Late Night Thursdays or Cheap Tuesdays. I was just feeling a bit strange. Sometimes it would feel really strange but it happens. Maybe its a male PMS. rofl. And all I wanted is to have a chance to read a book in the beach... I guess its far-fetched idea. Oh well...
Monday, February 15, 2010
The Joy of Cooking
Lately, I don't eat out anymore. Simply refraining from the costly takeaways or the redundant eateries. I realised that you save more plus cooking takes away stress-related anxieties.
Simple preparation of ingredients, buying it from grocery to chopping, dicing and sauteing make me happy. If only I did this the soonest, then i could have saved heaps of money. Fortnight grocery costs are just $80 compared to $280 takeaways. This could save up to five grand a year. Whoa, that could have been spent on travels!
Hence I cooked Afritada tonight. I will enjoy it while finishing up on my McBealathon. Really sad to see it end though.
Simple preparation of ingredients, buying it from grocery to chopping, dicing and sauteing make me happy. If only I did this the soonest, then i could have saved heaps of money. Fortnight grocery costs are just $80 compared to $280 takeaways. This could save up to five grand a year. Whoa, that could have been spent on travels!
Hence I cooked Afritada tonight. I will enjoy it while finishing up on my McBealathon. Really sad to see it end though.
Sunday, February 14, 2010
To Where You Are / Where Am I
Again, I am utterly dazzled with Josh Groban's performance on Ally McBeal Season 5. I know I'm still watching it. Actually I am slowly watching every episode as it will end in a matter of few clicks.
An excerpt from the moving song that led me to tears tonight:
As my heart holds you
Just one beat away
I cherish all you gave me everyday...
And I believe
That angels breathe
And that love will live on and never leave
~~~
Feeling lost. Not knowing where this life is leading
Sadness; Perhaps the gloomy sky shall cease
I am looking for something that binds me to forever's bliss.
An excerpt from the moving song that led me to tears tonight:
As my heart holds you
Just one beat away
I cherish all you gave me everyday...
And I believe
That angels breathe
And that love will live on and never leave
~~~
Feeling lost. Not knowing where this life is leading
Sadness; Perhaps the gloomy sky shall cease
I am looking for something that binds me to forever's bliss.
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
McBealathon
All I can say is: how come I didn't watch this show fresh on TV?
I know its way back in college days. Probably the first few trimesters I was so enamored with full passion in accounting ("yuck!" as Nelle would put it). Or this was way back in High School, I was too busy aiming for the highest honours.
Watching it day after day and week after week, it comforts me. Knowing that I'm on strike against spending. Against pointless clubbing and drinking. I know I am guilty of complaining how boring life can get, especially when not many friends are present nowadays. Some of them living afar while others can be so distant.
[ There are friends that come and go, and you'd be surprise how vigorous they can get when they needed you. and disappear like a bubble when they don't. ]
"Helping others is never more beneficial than when it's in your own self-interest." Well thats Fishism. I agree but its horse shit.
Going back to this McBealathon. I just feel happy for Ally to be dating and ending up happy with Robert Downy, Jr. (dunno whats his screen name). But it gives me a sense of comfort that Ally is happy walking home side by side with him. This is how far I got, so not really sure if they will end up together though. If you know the answer, then just shush. :X
By the way, the music is just so fabulous. I personally hate Vonda's face but some of her songs are good, inspiring even.
I know its way back in college days. Probably the first few trimesters I was so enamored with full passion in accounting ("yuck!" as Nelle would put it). Or this was way back in High School, I was too busy aiming for the highest honours.
Watching it day after day and week after week, it comforts me. Knowing that I'm on strike against spending. Against pointless clubbing and drinking. I know I am guilty of complaining how boring life can get, especially when not many friends are present nowadays. Some of them living afar while others can be so distant.
[ There are friends that come and go, and you'd be surprise how vigorous they can get when they needed you. and disappear like a bubble when they don't. ]
"Helping others is never more beneficial than when it's in your own self-interest." Well thats Fishism. I agree but its horse shit.
Going back to this McBealathon. I just feel happy for Ally to be dating and ending up happy with Robert Downy, Jr. (dunno whats his screen name). But it gives me a sense of comfort that Ally is happy walking home side by side with him. This is how far I got, so not really sure if they will end up together though. If you know the answer, then just shush. :X
By the way, the music is just so fabulous. I personally hate Vonda's face but some of her songs are good, inspiring even.
Saturday, January 30, 2010
i want to ... but i don't!
Sunny Saturday, heaps of things I can do. I want to do. But I just don't. I can't explain this state of mind. Something tells me I have to go get a psychiatrist.
I want to...
bike or jog around Glebe and grab my late lunch;
grocery shop;
go out clubbing tonight;
meet up with people.
I perceive that I've used blogs to whinge about all this insanities I feel. Its just that I'm utterly bored but I'm stupidly lazy. But not extremely though cos I've been a good boy and doing my laundry as I type.
Lots of thoughts are going through my head. I want to accomplish these things in few months time:
enrol for further studies;
edit my CV and thinking of doing audit again;
travel alone badly (interstate next weekend, Egypt before my elite krisflyer expires);
go back home for couple of weeks and enjoy the humidity (possibly this March).
but then again, i hope my state of mind goes stable. and at least i can accomplish some of these.
I want to...
bike or jog around Glebe and grab my late lunch;
grocery shop;
go out clubbing tonight;
meet up with people.
I perceive that I've used blogs to whinge about all this insanities I feel. Its just that I'm utterly bored but I'm stupidly lazy. But not extremely though cos I've been a good boy and doing my laundry as I type.
Lots of thoughts are going through my head. I want to accomplish these things in few months time:
enrol for further studies;
edit my CV and thinking of doing audit again;
travel alone badly (interstate next weekend, Egypt before my elite krisflyer expires);
go back home for couple of weeks and enjoy the humidity (possibly this March).
but then again, i hope my state of mind goes stable. and at least i can accomplish some of these.
Thursday, January 21, 2010
Random Quotes
“Even a happy life cannot be without a measure of darkness, and the word happiness would lose its meaning if it were not balanced by sadness.”
Alishia Southall
Alishia Southall
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
The Jarocin House
I've been living in this shared house for exactly three months now. And its blog-worthy to discuss about how it all goes.
The Characters
Mr. Peru - Awesome guy! He's just in his early 20's but he is our big boss. Sort of like the big mafia man. He brings guests in for parties and he is indeed very responsible. He would arrange for house rules (which i would dwell on in a bit).
Ms. Australia - She's the significant other of Mr. Peru. They live-in together when I moved in. I was surprised that she moved out two weeks ago. I initially thought that they broke up but I saw her just two days ago visiting us. She told me she's living in Chippendale closer to work. I share the same sentiments with her that its best to live in a place convenient to work (walking distance to her office). She's nice, friendly and easy to make her laugh.
Ms. Pink (or Mister?) - She looks like Pink, because her hair's pink and cut shorter. I think she was the culprit on the vampire incident that shocked me the most when I moved in before (hint: check my October 2009 post regarding Vampire). She is currently traveling to Romania cos she just finished her uni. Hence, she no longer lives in the house. It is now occupied by Mr. Australia after Ms. Taiwan took over.
Ms. Sweden - The coolest house mate ever. Too bad she had to go to greener pasteur. Sweet lotsa stories to tell. Even lets me hangout with her Swedish friends and the ever coolest friend Jack (reminds me of Just Jack, really). She just celebrated her birthday, unfortunately it coincided with David Sedaris' evening book reading. But I should have gone to her party. I miss her most especially the time we made fun of Ms. Taiwan's weird weird ways.
Ms. Taiwan - The one who took over Ms. Sweden's room. She's weird. Like she's secludes herself in the confinement of her room. Day-in and day-out she's in her room, never even goes out of the house. She looks nice but if I have to judge- she looks like she's doing witchcraft or spells of some sorts. There was one incident where she has crossed the line of weirdness and total insanity. Imagine that she used up all of my toilet papers to put in between the spaces of the toilet door. Imagine that the door has this Venetian blinds design. Justification is that she couldn't sleep cos of the noise of faucet leaking and the flush at night. She told me she even put earplugs while sleeping. WTF?
Mr. Chile - The New Kid on the Block. He looked like a teenager but on his early 20's. He's fun. Lots of drinking and party nights initiated by him. Through him, I have been hanging out with his Chilean buds. It was cool. He's the next best thing after Ms. Sweden. Cos I see him a lot in the patio when I'm doing my laundry. He even taught me the washing machine laundry trick. But this guy is so afraid of spiders. Swears at mossies and cockroaches.
Mr. Aussie - This is the weird weird guy that replaced Ms. Taiwan's room. I reckon Ms. Taiwan has put a spell on whoever takes over her room. Indeed the bizarre spell has possessed this guy. First day I saw him, he was running up and down the stairs doing nothing. accomplishing nothing. he leaves all his footwear outside the house. WTF, the house is a total chaos and even his room is messy. What's with that? But I have to give the benefit of the doubt. I haven't really talked to the guy and his a week old living in the Jarocin house.
Ms. French - I am looking forward to meet her. I haven't have the slightest idea who she is yet. She'll be moving in on Sunday and I hope she's like Ms. Sweden or Mr. Chile.
Spider Toilet
There are two toilets in the house. One situated near the patio and one near Ms. Pink, Ms. Taiwan and Mr. Australia's room. The one near the patio is the spider toilet. Although its so cool, cos you'll see vandals from previous tenants. It still gives me the creeps whenever I take a leak. There are giant spiders inside that one point I think was the biggest challenge I ever did. My bladder was already exploding and Ms. Taiwan was still putting her toilet papers in the Venetian door of the other toilet. I took the plunge and prayed so hard that no spider will appear. I almost had a black out but good thing I survived that initiation.
The Mixed-up Washing Machine
This is the one that Mr. Chile gave me some advice for. This washing machine is just demented. It won't let me wash my clothes properly. There were couple of times that I have to squeeze my clothes after washing cos it doesn't know how to spin dry. And one instance I put my clothes and the powder in but not even the water is coming out. I did the normal hand wash like I have a choice. And it became the longest laundry day of my life. And here comes Mr. Chile saying that I need to shake the brain of the washing machine. I did. And it's now working. Shake shake and you have to constantly watch it like a kid playing in the field.
Mr. Peru's House Rules
Very simple, really. He scheduled each one of us to take the rubbish out. Clean the toilet. Buy toilet papers, rubbish bags, dishwashing liquid. No noise during Sunday morning-meaning curfew for Saturday night drinking at the patio.
My early bloopers
Imagine I was climbing the great wall of Jarocin House whenever someone locked the door from the inside. There was this one time my neighbour saw me and I have to explain it really hard that I live in the house and I'm not a robber. Only to know from Mr. Chile and Ms. Taiwan that the knob of the door can be turned from the outside.
The Characters
Mr. Peru - Awesome guy! He's just in his early 20's but he is our big boss. Sort of like the big mafia man. He brings guests in for parties and he is indeed very responsible. He would arrange for house rules (which i would dwell on in a bit).
Ms. Australia - She's the significant other of Mr. Peru. They live-in together when I moved in. I was surprised that she moved out two weeks ago. I initially thought that they broke up but I saw her just two days ago visiting us. She told me she's living in Chippendale closer to work. I share the same sentiments with her that its best to live in a place convenient to work (walking distance to her office). She's nice, friendly and easy to make her laugh.
Ms. Pink (or Mister?) - She looks like Pink, because her hair's pink and cut shorter. I think she was the culprit on the vampire incident that shocked me the most when I moved in before (hint: check my October 2009 post regarding Vampire). She is currently traveling to Romania cos she just finished her uni. Hence, she no longer lives in the house. It is now occupied by Mr. Australia after Ms. Taiwan took over.
Ms. Sweden - The coolest house mate ever. Too bad she had to go to greener pasteur. Sweet lotsa stories to tell. Even lets me hangout with her Swedish friends and the ever coolest friend Jack (reminds me of Just Jack, really). She just celebrated her birthday, unfortunately it coincided with David Sedaris' evening book reading. But I should have gone to her party. I miss her most especially the time we made fun of Ms. Taiwan's weird weird ways.
Ms. Taiwan - The one who took over Ms. Sweden's room. She's weird. Like she's secludes herself in the confinement of her room. Day-in and day-out she's in her room, never even goes out of the house. She looks nice but if I have to judge- she looks like she's doing witchcraft or spells of some sorts. There was one incident where she has crossed the line of weirdness and total insanity. Imagine that she used up all of my toilet papers to put in between the spaces of the toilet door. Imagine that the door has this Venetian blinds design. Justification is that she couldn't sleep cos of the noise of faucet leaking and the flush at night. She told me she even put earplugs while sleeping. WTF?
Mr. Chile - The New Kid on the Block. He looked like a teenager but on his early 20's. He's fun. Lots of drinking and party nights initiated by him. Through him, I have been hanging out with his Chilean buds. It was cool. He's the next best thing after Ms. Sweden. Cos I see him a lot in the patio when I'm doing my laundry. He even taught me the washing machine laundry trick. But this guy is so afraid of spiders. Swears at mossies and cockroaches.
Mr. Aussie - This is the weird weird guy that replaced Ms. Taiwan's room. I reckon Ms. Taiwan has put a spell on whoever takes over her room. Indeed the bizarre spell has possessed this guy. First day I saw him, he was running up and down the stairs doing nothing. accomplishing nothing. he leaves all his footwear outside the house. WTF, the house is a total chaos and even his room is messy. What's with that? But I have to give the benefit of the doubt. I haven't really talked to the guy and his a week old living in the Jarocin house.
Ms. French - I am looking forward to meet her. I haven't have the slightest idea who she is yet. She'll be moving in on Sunday and I hope she's like Ms. Sweden or Mr. Chile.
Spider Toilet
There are two toilets in the house. One situated near the patio and one near Ms. Pink, Ms. Taiwan and Mr. Australia's room. The one near the patio is the spider toilet. Although its so cool, cos you'll see vandals from previous tenants. It still gives me the creeps whenever I take a leak. There are giant spiders inside that one point I think was the biggest challenge I ever did. My bladder was already exploding and Ms. Taiwan was still putting her toilet papers in the Venetian door of the other toilet. I took the plunge and prayed so hard that no spider will appear. I almost had a black out but good thing I survived that initiation.
The Mixed-up Washing Machine
This is the one that Mr. Chile gave me some advice for. This washing machine is just demented. It won't let me wash my clothes properly. There were couple of times that I have to squeeze my clothes after washing cos it doesn't know how to spin dry. And one instance I put my clothes and the powder in but not even the water is coming out. I did the normal hand wash like I have a choice. And it became the longest laundry day of my life. And here comes Mr. Chile saying that I need to shake the brain of the washing machine. I did. And it's now working. Shake shake and you have to constantly watch it like a kid playing in the field.
Mr. Peru's House Rules
Very simple, really. He scheduled each one of us to take the rubbish out. Clean the toilet. Buy toilet papers, rubbish bags, dishwashing liquid. No noise during Sunday morning-meaning curfew for Saturday night drinking at the patio.
My early bloopers
Imagine I was climbing the great wall of Jarocin House whenever someone locked the door from the inside. There was this one time my neighbour saw me and I have to explain it really hard that I live in the house and I'm not a robber. Only to know from Mr. Chile and Ms. Taiwan that the knob of the door can be turned from the outside.
Sunday, January 17, 2010
angel's delight
the fragrant and alluring charisma of an angel
it raptures my body with distinct pleasure
takes away melancholy and distant desires
fruity, sparkly and it twinkles my skin in a subtle way
it refreshes me and gives me a distinct radiance
thanks to Lush® limited edition soaps. :)
it raptures my body with distinct pleasure
takes away melancholy and distant desires
fruity, sparkly and it twinkles my skin in a subtle way
it refreshes me and gives me a distinct radiance
thanks to Lush® limited edition soaps. :)
The Hilarious David Sedaris
Fabulous night with the great David Sedaris.
And he's even spectacular when he did the book reading.
I'm really happy that he would release a book this fall (U.S. season, i reckon)
He even had a Q&A during his show and it was heaps interesting.
After two hours of queueing for him to sign my book,
finally we were able to be up close with him.
Talked about how he finds it strange that Manila has all those cables visible.
and he signed my 'Dress Your Family with Corduroy and Denim' book as shown below.
XS.
I hafta tell him that I was tempted to jump the long queue cos I'm short. One of his jokes was all short people should be given priority. Haha :P and can you believe he's just 5'5".
Too bad my friend slept during the show. But still I thank him for coming with me though.
And he's even spectacular when he did the book reading.
I'm really happy that he would release a book this fall (U.S. season, i reckon)
He even had a Q&A during his show and it was heaps interesting.
After two hours of queueing for him to sign my book,
finally we were able to be up close with him.
Talked about how he finds it strange that Manila has all those cables visible.
and he signed my 'Dress Your Family with Corduroy and Denim' book as shown below.
XS.
I hafta tell him that I was tempted to jump the long queue cos I'm short. One of his jokes was all short people should be given priority. Haha :P and can you believe he's just 5'5".
Too bad my friend slept during the show. But still I thank him for coming with me though.
Saturday, January 16, 2010
a hundred million suns
million glitters in the sky
i once had a dream but i have to let it go
nostalgia hit me again and it troubles me
but i can just dream and wish for it
funny how i've been looking for something that i can't even have
maybe it will come, maybe it won't
but the feeling that a glimpse of hope is just around the corner
keeps me going on and yes, it never failed to make me smile.
a hundred millions suns. and if there's a rocket tie me to it.
i once had a dream but i have to let it go
nostalgia hit me again and it troubles me
but i can just dream and wish for it
funny how i've been looking for something that i can't even have
maybe it will come, maybe it won't
but the feeling that a glimpse of hope is just around the corner
keeps me going on and yes, it never failed to make me smile.
a hundred millions suns. and if there's a rocket tie me to it.
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
the worried mouse
i am often burdened by my responsibilities in the office. for one, the mere fact that we can't pay all our suppliers on time threatens the going-concern of the company. and the obvious indication that they can't even pay our salaries and wages on time. now that is serious. i know, its unprofessional to talk about work. but this consumes me day after day. now that i have to handle redundancies. again, i am troubled.
if only there is a suitable work environment ready to pick me up and believe in what i can do. sometimes i am worried that my bosses do not even know how (even the slightest) that i am working very hard. no pat on the shoulder. no compliments. i was used to that kind of environment where merit is always rewarded.
at the end of the day, i am just glad that i have a job. and i am thankful for it.
but seriously, this aspect still does trouble me.
if only there is a suitable work environment ready to pick me up and believe in what i can do. sometimes i am worried that my bosses do not even know how (even the slightest) that i am working very hard. no pat on the shoulder. no compliments. i was used to that kind of environment where merit is always rewarded.
at the end of the day, i am just glad that i have a job. and i am thankful for it.
but seriously, this aspect still does trouble me.
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
can u handle hot? pure evil grin in me...
I guess this is a question for someone who would have a lower threshold for hot temperature, that is in terms of perspiration. My whole body seemed like a leaking faucet. Originating from my forehead down to my back. Even the use of my D&G anti-perspirant is futile. Sheer embarrassment occurred to me when I was walking down at Sydney Uni. Everyone's looking at me. They were obviously thinking someone threw a water balloon at my back, underarms, front and my whole face.
I decided to strip my shirt off and remedy this jabaric situation using USYD toilet's hand dryer. Good thing, it was rectified. Remind me to wear undershirt next time. I was just being Aussie by not putting any under shirt. So bite me.
XS1.
Lets digress, shall we. There will come a point in your life that u will think that abusiveness cannot be tolerated anymore. Enough is enough. Though I felt bit bad with my actions. Hence tomorrow I will do something about it. Go early at work and try to please them. Reverse psychology might work on both accounts.
I placed the leech in the aquarium jar rather than killing it. There might be something I can do about their unrealistic demands. Perhaps give them frozen jello and make up for the unchivalry behaviour in me.
XS2.
Another story. Mike, our new house mate is really strange. I bet he's either schizophrenic or druggie (as what my friends have suggested). For one, he goes up and down and all around the house. Doing absolutely nothing. Slams everything. Keeps his shoes outside the house even if his room and the house are in a total chaotic state. But lets observe and will finally conclude by next week.
I decided to strip my shirt off and remedy this jabaric situation using USYD toilet's hand dryer. Good thing, it was rectified. Remind me to wear undershirt next time. I was just being Aussie by not putting any under shirt. So bite me.
XS1.
Lets digress, shall we. There will come a point in your life that u will think that abusiveness cannot be tolerated anymore. Enough is enough. Though I felt bit bad with my actions. Hence tomorrow I will do something about it. Go early at work and try to please them. Reverse psychology might work on both accounts.
I placed the leech in the aquarium jar rather than killing it. There might be something I can do about their unrealistic demands. Perhaps give them frozen jello and make up for the unchivalry behaviour in me.
XS2.
Another story. Mike, our new house mate is really strange. I bet he's either schizophrenic or druggie (as what my friends have suggested). For one, he goes up and down and all around the house. Doing absolutely nothing. Slams everything. Keeps his shoes outside the house even if his room and the house are in a total chaotic state. But lets observe and will finally conclude by next week.
Monday, January 11, 2010
the crazy weekend
been up all night and its crazy as hell. always on parties and drinks. i think its based on the premise that the week to come would be a big deal and we just want to unworry. unstress. ala-NRMA ad.
i just cant divulge info here. it was fun night, met a lot of new friends. went out of the box by trying to do something new. indeed it was hot as summer can be!
******
mondays are usually the lowest point to work but still i have done lots of tasks today. i actually ran out of things to do in the office. hence i opted to use facebook and cook through my cafe world.
its all gloomy outside and all i wanna do is go home and start surfing the net. now that im online, i just want to sleep. i think im demented. i need a surge of retail therapy again to cure this state of mind.
i just cant divulge info here. it was fun night, met a lot of new friends. went out of the box by trying to do something new. indeed it was hot as summer can be!
******
mondays are usually the lowest point to work but still i have done lots of tasks today. i actually ran out of things to do in the office. hence i opted to use facebook and cook through my cafe world.
its all gloomy outside and all i wanna do is go home and start surfing the net. now that im online, i just want to sleep. i think im demented. i need a surge of retail therapy again to cure this state of mind.
Saturday, January 9, 2010
and I'm an official fan!
There are some people who meet that somebody that they can never stop loving, no matter how hard they try. I wouldn't expect you to understand that, or even believe it, but trust me, there are some loves that don't go away. And maybe that makes them crazy, but we should all be lucky enough to end up with somebody who has a little of that insanity. Someone who never lets go. Someone who cherishes you forever.
- Ally McBeal.
- Ally McBeal.
senselessness
anguished souls. burdened by myself unknowingly. carried away by eccentricity. i am sorry but trying to straighten things out. its futile. i'm not interested. next page please...
***
Summer's heat is on. After the hangover from guys night out, we played badminton. Too exhausted and lacking sleep. At least I shed off some calories.
Still wondering if I will go out tonight. Still pondering. Is it worth it?
***
I am demented. Yes and this doesn't make any sense at all.
***
Summer's heat is on. After the hangover from guys night out, we played badminton. Too exhausted and lacking sleep. At least I shed off some calories.
Still wondering if I will go out tonight. Still pondering. Is it worth it?
***
I am demented. Yes and this doesn't make any sense at all.
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
Rondz' Wishlist 2010
When you're down, sometimes shopping can be a therapy. As wikipedia would say, it improves our mood or disposition in periods of depression or transition. and that is what you call - retail therapy.
Hang on?! I've used up my life savings during the past months of recession not to mention travels. How can this be possible?
Times like this, study shows that "window shopping online" can be an alternative to the actual retail therapy. Instead of buying, you are drawn to put up a wishlist. The same feel-good satisfaction you get when you walk around shops.
So far my wishlist are the following:
1. Stewie's Head
Will probably get this before the fiscal year ends? I still have lots of TV Shows to watch. And I reckon stocktake clearance sale would justify buying this!
2. The Book Thief
At the rate I'm going with my book readings, seems like I would justify to buy this one during Winter. Although Summer would help a lot cos I would be bringing something to read in the beach. But still have loads of books to read... I reckon Winter '10.
3. Ponyo DVD
I will definitely buy this DVD on Thursday, late night shopping day. Remember I always have fifty bucks shopping accrual. What justifies it? Rotten Tomato's review!
4. Evening with David Sedaris: 16/01/10
I will book this show on Friday, even if I'm going alone! I don't care. I would have a good laugh. I can concentrate even more. Hold it... I know I would look like a big L. So I might give one free ticket to a friend or a date. Let's see.
5. Gucci, Navy Blue Thong
I've tried it on, and it was spectacular.. Hmm... Fabulous if you may. I deserve to buy this, maybe as a Birthday Gift! :P
6. Bally, Transporter Tan Messanger Bag
Yes, I know. I wouldnt be able to use this. I'm working on a much lower profile company. If I were still in Ernst & Young I would definitely consider it. But right now, no no no! But maybe Christmas time, this could be a perfect gift for myself. And at that time, I would be working in a much better corporate environment.
Stress. Anxiety. - all gone!
Hang on?! I've used up my life savings during the past months of recession not to mention travels. How can this be possible?
Times like this, study shows that "window shopping online" can be an alternative to the actual retail therapy. Instead of buying, you are drawn to put up a wishlist. The same feel-good satisfaction you get when you walk around shops.
So far my wishlist are the following:
1. Stewie's Head
Will probably get this before the fiscal year ends? I still have lots of TV Shows to watch. And I reckon stocktake clearance sale would justify buying this!
2. The Book Thief
At the rate I'm going with my book readings, seems like I would justify to buy this one during Winter. Although Summer would help a lot cos I would be bringing something to read in the beach. But still have loads of books to read... I reckon Winter '10.
3. Ponyo DVD
I will definitely buy this DVD on Thursday, late night shopping day. Remember I always have fifty bucks shopping accrual. What justifies it? Rotten Tomato's review!
4. Evening with David Sedaris: 16/01/10
I will book this show on Friday, even if I'm going alone! I don't care. I would have a good laugh. I can concentrate even more. Hold it... I know I would look like a big L. So I might give one free ticket to a friend or a date. Let's see.
5. Gucci, Navy Blue Thong
I've tried it on, and it was spectacular.. Hmm... Fabulous if you may. I deserve to buy this, maybe as a Birthday Gift! :P
6. Bally, Transporter Tan Messanger Bag
Yes, I know. I wouldnt be able to use this. I'm working on a much lower profile company. If I were still in Ernst & Young I would definitely consider it. But right now, no no no! But maybe Christmas time, this could be a perfect gift for myself. And at that time, I would be working in a much better corporate environment.
Stress. Anxiety. - all gone!
Friday, January 1, 2010
HNY 2010.
A start of a new decade can be promising. Hopes and dreams are indeed carried-over. Aspirations seem to be auspicious. We venture our life with lots of mistakes, dismay and things we regret doing. But come to think of it, lessons were learned.
Resolutions. Quite pathetic and such a cliché. I would have to say that I will again strive with all my will power to succeed in endeavours I wanted to achieve.
So much has happened in 2009. I would not want to forget them. Yes, those are moments in the past but it musters courage giving me strength to face a promising year ahead. No need to jot down or recap these events, as they have been journalised. Sealed. and now I'm moving on.
Starting a new life can be refreshing. Yet can be scary sometimes. As long as we know that we have a concrete road to step on, choosing the path would be manageable.
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This years NYE was celebrated @ Ryde Municipality. Over at Niko's. But we were in the City after 6pm. I never realised that there would be 9pm fireworks. Shoot! If only we knew, we could have stayed bit longer.
No worries, at least we were able to have bit of drinks at my place. Together with my spanish speaking house mates and their hullata guests. We were obviously got lost in translation and decided to head out over at Niko's.
XS.
Don't treat me rubbish if you don't want to be treated rubbish. Otherwise, its going to be a dumpster and its not going to smell nice.
Resolutions. Quite pathetic and such a cliché. I would have to say that I will again strive with all my will power to succeed in endeavours I wanted to achieve.
So much has happened in 2009. I would not want to forget them. Yes, those are moments in the past but it musters courage giving me strength to face a promising year ahead. No need to jot down or recap these events, as they have been journalised. Sealed. and now I'm moving on.
Starting a new life can be refreshing. Yet can be scary sometimes. As long as we know that we have a concrete road to step on, choosing the path would be manageable.
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This years NYE was celebrated @ Ryde Municipality. Over at Niko's. But we were in the City after 6pm. I never realised that there would be 9pm fireworks. Shoot! If only we knew, we could have stayed bit longer.
No worries, at least we were able to have bit of drinks at my place. Together with my spanish speaking house mates and their hullata guests. We were obviously got lost in translation and decided to head out over at Niko's.
XS.
Don't treat me rubbish if you don't want to be treated rubbish. Otherwise, its going to be a dumpster and its not going to smell nice.
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