im just cruising the net

and doing what i miss lately

im also uploading some files

so that my gradpage would finally be finished



i bought a duncan sheik cd awhile ago

heard the first five fab songs

its really cool

cant wait to listen to the other songs...

be back tomorrow,

still have to study the last subject i havnt finished reviewin'

and that is auditing theory! i hate that subject

its really boring.

just sittin' in my room

got tons of things to do

can't seem to funtion

im already well and good

back again from my vices

how can i get rid of 'em?

really don't have an idea



every split seconds

i reckon her

probably it's just fate that breaks us apart

will i have a chance to be with her again?

probably not!

she has her own life now

but the memories are fresh as the morning dew

how can i forget her?

the time we spent with each other

we really had so much fun

but where are we now?

suddenly i'm all alone

looking at life in a miserable way

yeah! only time can heal

nominal value is always deceiving

as fas as i show how i'm reacting

the yield rate is always concealed

i don't wanna look like a fool!

but within the portals of my mind

i still fathom possibilities

but could i ever find an opportunity

i think not

i'm damned for all eternities

the depths of the shadow has swallowed me completely

finding reason seems illogical

radical explanations are hard to grasp

maybe it's just the way destiny works

we were not meant to be

but still

i keep on waiting for the right time

the right time to accept and get it over with

its hard! yet im coping

when will i find somebody new

later? tomorrow?

or even never!

why is that when one falls in love

it seems like she's the only person whom you'll love

can't command my heart from stopping

i want to end it but i can't

want to find somebody new

but it keeps on beating

why am i such a fool for her

sometimes i think i'm a creep

maybe i don't deserve her

its beyond the boundaries

maybe there simply a hairline between love & friendship that exists

its simplicity i can't absorb til now

my troubled mind seems to be relentless

i'm tired of thinking

i'm tired of expecting

each day, each night

i kept on praying

that i wanted everything to be over

emotions seem to be uncontrollable

its just a shame that my heart can't write her off

maybe one day it would be over

but now, i must bear this cross

its hard to cope up with reality

but surely, i'll meet someone

destiny will arrive sooner or later

good things shall happen

i know it!

i just have to be patient

it will make me a lot happier

the principle of equality!

the same burden that im carrying

would be the same glorious moment i'm yearning

it will happen one day

who knows?

it might still be her

or someone even better

it would bring me to salvation

take me out of this damned world

she shall relight my broken path

i'll just wait

til that time arrives...



-rondz

-feb 15, 2003

its mid-feb already and i havent finished reviewing for most

of my subjects. i got all messed up because of this asthma.

right now, its already subsiding and i should really have to rest

so that by next week my batteries are fully-charged for another

week's review.



my mom recently bought a DVD player its really cool. unfortunately

there's something wrong with the power button. shesh... i have to

wrap something thick and place a rubberband on its body in order to

fix the button. i've just seen "catch me if you can". yesterday i watched

"the ring zero", and "the hours". i was really impressed with the latter

since the plot is very enthralling. its sophisticatedness is really awesome!

one can really imagine how to be a poet, and to think about how you will

finish your story, your character... will she die? as what the poet said in the

movie that the character should die in order for the people around her to value

life...



whats up with me? well, as i've said im still recovering. I am also quite busy

with various applications at different firms. im considering an application for

Unilever, Accenture, Thompson, Procter & Gamble, etc. But i really wanted

to be employed on an auditing firm, particularly at SGV & Co which is an

affiliate of Ernst & Young. That's why im really studying hard for the board

exam. I wanted to pass the licensure exam so that i can start with my life.

Earn a living and save for my future. Well, life is really interesting you know?!

Its like a rollercoaster ride because everyone is really anxious in waiting for

ones turn and when one has finally rode the rollercoaster, that is where the fun

begins. Actually it still depends on the person on how he is going to face the

climax of the ride, is it not? In the end, the person will evaluate if he did

enjoy the ride? Is his life fulfilling?



harharhar... i really miss blogging ...

i havent made an entry for quite a long time!

that's why i kept on saying none sense crap!

anyway, thanks for all those who signed my g-book!

its greatly appreciated!

btw, you can also type a thing or two over at my chatterbox

dont worry, i wont bite you! hehehe

miss y'all... bye! ;P

long time no blog...

im here at burgundy

can't sleep

just finished studying practical acctg 1

im supposed-to-be-sleeping but im not

my room8s are still playing cards

anyway, i just graduated last saturday

it was one helluva event...

i was really excited back then.

now i got to feel the feeling of triumph

ive succeeded on one of my endeavors

which is of course graduating on time

even though i didnt get any honors

i am still damn proud to graduate w/o failing any subjects

am happy that my parents are proud of me

we went to westin plaza after the graduation

right now, i vow to study harder for my board

i want to have a place on the top20 on our board exam

again, i have to unleash my determined and hardworking side of my personality... :)