Wednesday, December 14, 2011

Eliminating Stress Marks

Per my photo below, it is evident how stressed I have become for the past weeks. Ultimately this last few days as I cram through my exam review. On top of that I will be leaving for Manila tomorrow.

I just hope this patch gel really works to eliminate my stress mark!


Sunday, December 11, 2011

Fix me

The house is so quiet. It's raining once again. I've never felt this sad. I don't know what's bothering me. Maybe my upcoming exams. Or maybe the stress at work. I couldn't even feel that in matter of days, I will be flying off to my home.

Excitement will commence once I finish my work tomorrow. That is certain! I am not frightened with this module, maybe because its different. All other modules have strict standard, laws and regulation whilst MAA is purely on how you analyse the business and using your judgement to get the most out of a given situation.

If only I can apply all these decision-making tools into my life. If only I have the decision-making at work. All constraints are pulling me down into deep sadness. If only I can fix me.

Oh well, this will soon be finished. And I will enjoy my well-deserved holiday! Christmas with my family is the only anticipation that will reverse the misery out of me.

Sunday, November 27, 2011

The Sun is UP!

It has risen like a big hope in desperate situation. I surely know that it wouldn't abandon me in times of frailty. As expected, this coming week is another challenge as my CFO would say. The transition will be tough but I am always hopeful that I shall surpass difficulties that may rest upon me.

I am working with Taste effective tomorrow. Though its a brand new company its management is familiar cos its a sister company of my old job. Wish me luck! I need to prove something again. 

Thursday, November 24, 2011

Simple things that mean a lot

There are a lot of things to be thankful for. The greatest of them all is my survival in a sinking corporate world. It has been one helluva a drama in the office lately. But still I am happy that they still believe in me. And I continue to remain—a valued asset.

When we start to count our blessings, we realise how lucky we are. Despite all the hardships, we know something out there is worth suffering for. And there are reasons behind those unfortunate adversities.

I quote James Buckham: "Every trial endured and weathered in the right spirit makes a soul nobler and stronger than it was before".

I am seeing a brighter 2012! Yes, I always considered myself optimistic. Although the year has not yet passed, 2011 have been a bit shaky. However I grow and become a stronger person.

I was reading through my past blogs awhile ago with Aiza. And I can't help but realise how time flies so fast. Nostalgic past and happy memories that strengthens my belief that I have been at worst scenarios, I survived. I have a lot of things to hold on to. God always provides a safety cushion whenever we feel a need. There is always a parachute that magically appears in every desperate situation.

... and I am eternally grateful for that.

Wednesday, November 23, 2011

Rainy days are here again

The past few weeks had been a total hell. The weather is gloomy and now it is raining profusely. Normally rain can be seen as a blessing cos it can bring abundance. However, this time around I say it's destructive. I see how it constantly poured and how it flooded through my path. Moreso for people who are helpless and doesn't have a refuge under the rain. I just hate this situation, where I can't do anything.

I've seen how it can start with a drizzle and then stop for a minute. Then after few pauses rain will be nonstop. It is just emotionally draining. And its unpredictability is just too outrageous .

It is tough and being strong, equipped with a sturdy giant umbrella somehow keeps me from being drenched. But still I feel its effect.

I've seen the weather forecast and here it is...













Come Monday, it will ease up and a brighter week ahead. So I keep my fingers crossed.


Saturday, October 29, 2011

Negative Forces

One thing to battle against a company undergoing VA is the bad omen. It can come from staff, franchisees, suppliers and even executives.

Nothing beats angry suppliers, so I thought. Then my colleagues (who I can only imagine being possessed by evil spirits) come to you with a raised voice accusing you of this and that (i would love to spill it but still, I have to draw the line when it comes to professionalism). My patience is still intact though it's wafer thin. Try my patience next time and I will end up to be the monster yet to be unleashed.

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I was just glad that I passed my audit module. The only thing that made me happy this week; Apart from the usual happiness that Friday brings. Its been a helluva week I tell you. A day in the stressful office is like a week in a normal happy office. Not discounting the fact that I am doing a five-man job!

Thursday, October 20, 2011

Blame it on the NOISE!

Two nights in a row and I'm wide awake. Stressed. And I am restless. Blame it on the noise - literally every corner of my room!

I just want to find peace, even for 15 minutes so I can ignite the sleeping mode... :C

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

Another Hurdle I Must Endure

Yes, the rumours are true. Strathfield went into another wave of Administration earlier today. Executives dropped the bomb first thing this morning. All worried, I can feel tension is building up. Yet we were reassured that it wouldn't impact on our employment.

I asked myself whether this is the path I was meant to be dealing with. How come all misfortunes come my way?

32 months ago, I felt the same fate but it was to do with economic recession that forced management to let go of its "valued assets". Now I face uncertainty once again. However, this time I am confident in saying that they would definitely would want to keep me. But the question is - would I endure yet another hurdle?

I've come up with a preliminary course of action. Test the waters. Then decide if we will abort the ship. 

All is uncertain but I am confident that God will be there by my side to make the right decision.

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Random Thoughts on a Tuesday Arvo

It's 4:36p.m. and I am absolutely bored at work.

Let's talk about anything under the bright shiny sun!

~ I wish that it would turnout to be a good investment. Now I can honestly say that its not pouring through and thereby nourishing it. Just tiny droplets but can still make the plant grow. I just hope it will open up more and give abundance in the plants life.

~ Half-way finish with CA and I just hope for the best. Not sure about the future I have with this company. I know that the Executives care for me a lot. They value and trust my judgement - one thing that gravitates me back to Strathfield's force.

~ I still have to organise shipping of my old personal effects back to Manila. And probably need to buy some small things to fill the BB 2011.

~ I have yet to look for the lost treasures. The list seems to be growing and growing. Maybe sign of ageing or just my obvious reckless personality. I need the iPad2 connector, I need my old memory card, I need my CBC and GEC to utilise unused facilities.

~ I am proud to announce to all of you that the queen of HRHRM has given Royal Assent to terminate certain facilities. I have provided her with a list and recommendation based on the risk profile. She even commended my work as of high quality and sound judgement. Well, it is one way in building competence and reputation with her.

~ Further project assigned by the queen is analysis on LTCC's and maturity of BL's, with the immediate objective of raising capital to fund travel appropriations for next financial year.

~ We also had an informal strategic discussions on Hibiscus Royal. It is something that is planned but likelihood is still remote at this stage. I am speculating 2020's as the date of its inception.

~ Finally its 4:59p.m. only a minute from the theoretical dismissal. But obviously I have to stay until everyone goes home. Part of my allegiance to hard-work and leadership indicator (?) but not really.

Sunday, September 25, 2011

the reckoning

all is clear. it's for the better. stop stupidity and dwell on insurgency that is the pressing matter at hand. hence, corrective action in place. i just hope and pray that everything will fall into right places this time.

... i will try harder.

How it all went?

Basically I am still recovering from the aftershock of the exams. To be honest, it all went pretty well. I guess studying during the last 5 days before the exam paid off. Good that its been raining too to at least keep me away from doing something else in the City. One bad thing about living near civilisation.

One thing I learned from all this is not to cram again. Best to review each unit in detail as you it comes along in focus session discussions. Hence, I promise to maintain critical file from day one.

Other things - I am trying to focus on risk assessment of my own credit file. This time around I vowed to stay away from capital purchases. Means I'm growing isn't it? Like today, I manage to buy $13 shoes and serves practical purpose since my feet were all drenched. Blame it to the stupid rain.

Finished True Blood S4 too but its all too disturbing. The plot thickens and now I can't wait for S5. I reckon, I would be reading the next instalment on Sookie Stackhouse book 5.

Lets call it an early night, for tomorrow's going to be a good and nice sunny day. I hope.

Saturday, September 10, 2011

New Chapters of My Life

Not that I find blogging obsolete but the urge to post an entry or two seems to be unappealing anymore. Blame it to Facebook's status messages or Twitter, I reckon. It defies the free-flowing mind to capture life as it passes by.

[ Disclaimer: If you can't really decipher the gist of this blog post, better skip it now. I really think that this post can be too personal for me and you might not pick up anything from it ]

But recently or should I say today, I got my keyboards for $75. It's wireless and somehow I have to justify its use (for my iPad). But I know you can't put price tag to the output this keyboard brings. And yes, I am officially blogging via iPad. Technology can be so advanced and complex but so long as you know how to use it right, it brings the desired fruit that you would want to reap.

As months pass by, a lot has changed. I believe that I owe blogger a lot, as there are stories yet to be told.

A month after my last post. Something big happened. It changed me for the better. Often times I have never thought that this would be possible but destiny arrived. Love is simple yet can be so complex when not dealt with a mature mind. Growing up nourishes it with understanding and compromise. Past gives us an idea on how to live the present and plan for the future.

I finished my first CA module. And yes it is really competitive. I have to take a little breather after the first one. I decided to have my much deserved holiday to the US. Somehow visit my relatives and friends. The trip was surreal. I never imagined that the Bonus clan will be so accommodating that I think I left my heart in San Francisco. Most especially the I <3 NY is so true. Hmm... and what happens in Vegas should definitely stay in Vegas. Nuff said you know what I'm talking about.

Its September, finally the season has changed. Spring gives another hope that brings us closer to what we want in life. And it adds another year of wisdom. I turned 29 and I don't really want to admit it but sometimes I can't help but wonder how I lived my 20s. Did I enjoy my youth? Was I too focused at work? Did I not achieve what I wanted? So many questions yet the answer is so simple. I have lived my 8 years in my 20's as what I expected it to be - 'No regrets'. Simply because if you start questioning and regreting any moment in your life, then you have just wasted it without anything to takeaway. Yes, all of us would have done something foolish, stupid or just plain wrong but we learn from them. We carry them at our back and look back when we get a chance and laugh about it. We do not live by constantly whining and regretting it. But we bring it because it gives us courage that we have surpassed the trials and mischief.

At 29, I will work hard in building the foundation in my career. So when I step into thirty-hood I am ready to build an empire that I can enjoy when I retire and settle down. Everything that happens in life can be a cliche. But I believe that we experience them so we can grow in wisdom and confidence to build a stable life.

That's all for now and you have to pardon my thoughts as they are all around jumping around like fire crackers. I haven't done this in a long time so I really don't know how to contain it, like a popcorn in a bag popping in the microwave. Funny how I get this kind of thoughts. Seems preposterous and even pointless, you can say. But for me its meaningful. I've reread it and it exudes in perfection. Captured crystal clear just the way I wanted it to be (confusing and profound). It's as good as it gets maybe better next time around.

Thursday, January 27, 2011

Do I Make You Proud?

The blazing moment from yesterday still lingers on my mind. I know I have to write this thought otherwise it would be bugging me that I owe something to my Notes and/or Blogger. It is a milestone achieved and has to be documented.

To be given this opportunity to stand there amongst the crowd is an ultimate dream. My heart melted as I hear my voice. Half-minute of reshuffling photos and mumbled words that summarised my entire life here in Australia.

The vessel that carried the newly conferred Australians is called ‘Tu Du’. It is a Vietnamese boat that went from Saigon to Darwin to take refugees safely in Australia.

Sitting there as I waited for half an hour before they presented us to the crowd - I began to wonder what my life would have been if I decided to stay in Manila. Yes, I would be with my Family. Possibly still working with my previous employer and bounded by loyalty that would entirely define my life in a different colour tone.

This had me thinking that the choices we make may not always correspond to what we wanted to achieve. Somehow there is an element of fate that carries us in reaching destiny. And later on we accept it and realise that somewhere along the road everything is hodge-podge of suffering-learning; battle-triumph and realisation-inspiration.

Few seconds then I saw the crowd, we began to stand up. Mixed emotions, really. I began to feel teary-eyed. It was the perfect moment as we were drawn closer to them. More inspiring was the angelic sound of Gondwana singing ‘Do I Make You Proud’. I did waived my flag with pride. Proud of where I came from and be brought up by a good and respectable family. Friends that have been supporting me that became my family here in Australia. I am thankful beyond words for shaping and cultivating me.

I stayed with my closest friends for cocktails in Sydney Convention Centre as invited by NSW Premier herself. The night concluded with the Spectacular fireworks which danced with the music of Sydney Music Orchestra.

Indeed, an unforgettable moment.