answered prayer

my dad has just been released from ICU. i have been constantly praying for this day to come. i remember how our co-ICU watchers have been united with one purpose - that our patients be transferred to a private room come easter sunday.

i learned how to be more patient as it is indeed a tough job to take care of my dad knowing that he still has a lot of adjustments - i.e., transition from feeding tube to drinking/eating liquids through mouth, his level of consciousness, knowing the time and adjusting his sleeping mood, and of course the poo-poo attack!

three weeks of being here is quick. i will be coming back to sydney on sunday. i just hope that i have the courage to continue work. life is really a struggle. on every downfall, there is always someone who will extend His hands and help us back to continue the journey.

Good Friday and its goodness..

I've been here in Manila for two weeks now. I know that our family's been through a huge crisis this month. My dad's still in ICU. Whenever friends tell me that it's really been awhile. And my mom would worry that its been two weeks and he's still in ICU. It doesn't make me worry much because my dad is recovering well. Although a bit slow but whenever you see him smile, you will know that he's going to make it.

God has been good to us. Two days ago, his Neurosurgeon was literally jumping with joy and said that the Hydrocephalus have already cleared. It means that they will not operate daddy further to put the Shanting tubes or whatever you call it. I've talked with his pulmonary doctor and she told me that daddy's lungs are getting stronger. She will devise a plan to little by little takeout the ventilator.

Last night, I saw my dad having this strange big smile. And I quickly realised that he no longer have the feeding tube in his nose. And when I ask the interns they told me that dad removed it and now he is enjoying minutes of freedom without it.

I've been in the hospital for most of the time and I just appreciate the people who've been part of the struggle - doctors, nurses and interns. Our ICU neighbours - thanks for making us laugh and knowing that everything would be fine. I just wish that all of us would be able to survive this turmoil. By next week, hopefully we could have our own separate private rooms. Thanks to the Bonuses for helping us with the shifting. Thanks to my friends and relatives who continuously pray for dad's quick recovery. Above all, thanks to God who have enlighten us in times that we are in despair.

its gonna be alright

i keep reminding myself that its gonna be alright. but whenever i see him it breaks me into pieces. I saw him cry again. I saw the heart rate go below normal. saw him get a slight fever. knew that he reached high blood again. but i know that it is when i should put my full trust in God.

its gonna be alright.

tomorrow is the scheduled ct scan. i hope that everything will turn out to be a success and its a matter of time before we can move him to a private room. i wanted to take this opportunity to thank my friends and relatives who keep on praying for my dad. this stormy road shall soon come to an end. i will just keep my faith.

i believe in miracles

I am grateful for everyone who has prayed for my Dad. The power of prayer is indeed unrivaled and God has answered my prayers. I have asked God to extend my dad's life; hoping to see him once I return to Manila. It was granted. Now I am praying hard for his recovery.

At this stage, he is less critical but still in the ICU for five days. He is able to hear me but couldn't make any response. I've spoken with him awhile ago with his eyes open. I said that everyone was praying hard for his recovery and that he should keep the faith and fight back. I said that I am always there for him and he doesn't have to worry about anything else. His eyes began to water and his fingers started to reach for my hand. It was an emotional event for me. Knowing that my Dad would want to speak but he can't.

It is so difficult for me to show my emotions in front of him as it would definitely make him unstable but I have to be strong. I have to let him know that we trust God and we shall never give up. I assured him that everyone is holding up well and that he doesn't have to worry about mom. Mom easily gets emotional and it may be hard for her to see my Dad's condition. As she is suffering a great deal of anxiety and has constantly cried, all we can do is to update her and not to worry too much.

I continued to pray that his condition will stay positive. I believe in miracles and I think his life was saved during the operation. The brain activity has fallen to a very low point which is near brain dead but now he is recovering slowly and has shown a lot of improvements. Seeing the neurosurgeon and the neurology's faces gave me a great deal of hope that everything is going to be alright.

changi and hangri

im here at changi singapore airport. and i am starving. although i had a great meal in singair, i just want to eat something. prolly gonna grab something from coffee bean. i really miss it.

am anxious to get home and see my dad. hopefully he's getting better.

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currently at sydney kingsford airport. just had 2 hours sleep. i feel weak. but its better now since i heard great recovery from my dad. i hope this will continue to develop. just crossing my fingers that more good news will come.

state of shock...

my dad is in ICU at the moment. i am here on another continent. though i will be flying back home tomorrow i still am really worried and scared of what's to come. I prayed so hard and I know God will comfort me and my family. in times like this, i know i have to keep the faith. i know that there's no point in feeling pessimistic. i know for certain that God will guide as through.

i am thankful for supportive business unit and my manager for understanding my situation. my friends who helped me walk along this shaky path. I am terrified and don't know what to expect. i just know that i should be going home. don't care about work or money it would cost me. for my blog readers. i hope you could pray for the quick recovery of my dad who just recently underwent surgery. i still keep my hopes up.

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this damn anxiety shall pass. i know that. its killing me.

there's always some hope. dreams will come true.

guess its not yet time but it shall happen.

**the only time i can thank my job for keeping me busy**

frozen in bondi

Just here in b0ndi and cant believe that its freezing cold. I guess that this will be the last visit. I dont even know when is autumn. Weather is so unpredictable. I heard that today is the first day of autumn.

Got a jolt of excitement when i researched about my june travel. I never travelled alone for leisure. Hoping it will be fun. I will be going to 4 asian c0untries. Maybe here i could finally enjoy the tropical summer.

tell me when to stop

dammit. what's happening with this year's busy season. no matter what i do. it seems that work is never ending. i've been exerting tremendous effort but endless tasks keeps on falling. i just want to stop and have a break! 

on a good part - i've managed to book my leave this june. now the BIG question is where to go? any ideas?