its ticking...

matters unknown, do we still have time? i cant read it. probably i need to visit my eye doctor. few days to go. i hate to leave things hanging. if i can unfeel what i feel. i would do it. sometimes not sure if its worth taking the risk. you go on a path where each shade becomes unclear, grey and i do ask myself, am i really colourblind? i know its ticking, should i turn it loose? or should i just stop breathing and it would all go away. a predicament that i don't really want to be in. it sucks but maybe fate has brought me here.