hi there peeps! its been awhile since i last blogged!

actually, its been 5 days! well, what happened in that five days of silence...

im actually dying deep inside. i have an emotional breakdown.

indeed, atty virgilio reyes is right in saying that the hardest problem one may

encounter is the one that deals with your emotions...

actually, i plan to finish all this problems before the year ends.

because it greatly affects my future especially my review for the board exams.

its almost 2 weeks that i havent attended my review classes since i don't have

the mood to attend. basically, i feel very frustrated. the first time i loved very seriously

is also my first heartbreak. i dont intend to talk with you the details but one thing i would

share to you is that im trying to heal the pain. i want to take that downfall as something positive.

something that would help me to move on. although it requires a lot of thinking and rekindling

every moment that we're together. i know i would surpass this very emotional feeling that i long for her.

i know that she doesnt want to go on to the next level but its really hard to accept that rejection.

i also know that i might not have a chance to see her but i will make the move in telling her what im feeling.

for the past few days, ive been thinking a lot about my plans... but it seems they are all shattered. anyway,

im still going to take the final move and let's just wait for whatever that might happen. i still believe in miracles!

although one thing ive learned from life is that do not expect, because great expectations contribute a lot of pain

in realizing that you have not achieved what you want.



right now, its our course card day. the final course card day. maybe 5 minutes more, and ill go to school.

how can i pretend that i feel normal where in fact i am deteriorated deep inside. i have just gone from fever

i dunno if its what i call the usual love sick wherein after a great heartbreak i usually become sick... ey, i think i have

to go now... ill just blog later... :D