just sittin' in my room

got tons of things to do

can't seem to funtion

im already well and good

back again from my vices

how can i get rid of 'em?

really don't have an idea



every split seconds

i reckon her

probably it's just fate that breaks us apart

will i have a chance to be with her again?

probably not!

she has her own life now

but the memories are fresh as the morning dew

how can i forget her?

the time we spent with each other

we really had so much fun

but where are we now?

suddenly i'm all alone

looking at life in a miserable way

yeah! only time can heal

nominal value is always deceiving

as fas as i show how i'm reacting

the yield rate is always concealed

i don't wanna look like a fool!

but within the portals of my mind

i still fathom possibilities

but could i ever find an opportunity

i think not

i'm damned for all eternities

the depths of the shadow has swallowed me completely

finding reason seems illogical

radical explanations are hard to grasp

maybe it's just the way destiny works

we were not meant to be

but still

i keep on waiting for the right time

the right time to accept and get it over with

its hard! yet im coping

when will i find somebody new

later? tomorrow?

or even never!

why is that when one falls in love

it seems like she's the only person whom you'll love

can't command my heart from stopping

i want to end it but i can't

want to find somebody new

but it keeps on beating

why am i such a fool for her

sometimes i think i'm a creep

maybe i don't deserve her

its beyond the boundaries

maybe there simply a hairline between love & friendship that exists

its simplicity i can't absorb til now

my troubled mind seems to be relentless

i'm tired of thinking

i'm tired of expecting

each day, each night

i kept on praying

that i wanted everything to be over

emotions seem to be uncontrollable

its just a shame that my heart can't write her off

maybe one day it would be over

but now, i must bear this cross

its hard to cope up with reality

but surely, i'll meet someone

destiny will arrive sooner or later

good things shall happen

i know it!

i just have to be patient

it will make me a lot happier

the principle of equality!

the same burden that im carrying

would be the same glorious moment i'm yearning

it will happen one day

who knows?

it might still be her

or someone even better

it would bring me to salvation

take me out of this damned world

she shall relight my broken path

i'll just wait

til that time arrives...



-rondz

-feb 15, 2003