Blog Action Day: The 'Power of We'

To be honest I have not taken part on any social community assistance but I strongly believe in their efforts. I commend their full intentions and sacrificing their time towards the benefit of our less fortunate brothers and sisters.

This year's blog action is focused on the 'Power of We' and keeping in mind Bahaullah's thoughts that

"So powerful is the light of unity that it can illuminate the whole earth".

Two Sunday's ago a special missionary was invited in St. Kevin's Church in Eastwood to talk about the introduction of mission month, which was about the restoration of hope to those in desperate need. She talked about people in the Philippines that were affected by a massive typhoon back in 2009. The theme is to "Restore Hope, Share Grace". It is more about rebuilding the lives at Sitio Ronggot, which many families have lost their homes, livelihood and the community is at the lowest point in their lives.

I appreciate that there are a lot of selfless people in the world who have offered their time in building immediate spiritual, pastoral and practical support to these people affected. These kind of people makes the world a better place to live in and everything is possible as long as we are united in faith. 

my spiritual retreat

More than anything else this journey I took is my spiritual retreat. I come to find peace and look within myself what I had been doing in my life and what I would want to do next. I found an inner sanctum that nourishes my soul and captures my heart to where I wanted to be.

Over the past two months, I travelled to Singapore, Thailand and Philippines. It has been exhilarating knowing that I just been through a huge surgery and the wounds are just in the process of healing. The theme that I can imagine is YOLO (You Only Live Once) and the last hurrah of my 20s life.

My birthday celebration was not that grand as I told my friends and family that I do not want to celebrate it like its a big deal. But deep inside it is. I just want that my close friends keep me company and that I celebrate it as relaxing as it could be. Perhaps due to my recent surgery that I don't want to be stressed out.

Got some unexpected presents from my family and I am thankful for that. I wish myself more level of maturity which is tilted more on financial stability and growth and looking at the future rather than at present. In short, I disposed of my YOLO-attitude.

I hope I can keep this kind of thinking. I hope that I will get a better job. I hope that I can achieve a higher level of yearning this time. Gone are the days that I wanted this and that ~ materialistic ideal no longer exist (i hope). Maybe losing my valuables told me that luxury isn't for me.

Well I am wrapping it up cos I don't want to bore you with all these. I just wanted to thank all my friends and family who supported me all throughout this journey. They play a significant role in my spiritual retreat. Thank you Lord that you have constantly guided me and comforted me in times of frailty and self-doubt. I keep my faith. I hold on to it and carry it on as I create my life at 30s.

I will be flying out tomorrow and this blog entry is a medium of putting my emotions into writing. Hoping that I don't get too emotional when I leave Manila, my home. 

My Roller Coaster Ride / Sittin' up in my Room

Three weeks after I left Sydney, all has been a ballistic roller coaster ride. It was partly what I did expect but a lot of which turned out to be unfortunate. Extremely uncalled for.

Everytime I make big decisions, I see to it that I have the contingency life vest. I do have it.. but it has holes in it. And now I am praying for a miracle that maybe someone will sacrifice their own life vest to save me... On second thought, patience can be a key too. Maybe I wait for the repair man to fix it. I know I am trained to always stand on my own feet.

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Anyway, nonstop rain and I just take the courage to motivate myself and do my promised reviews. Otherwise I end up on my bed and binging on chocolate and cheese puffs (which I adore by the way).

So it will be just another rainy day. Hoping that my supplies won't run out as I laze in my bed playing S3 games.

Looking for God's kind-purpose in me

Few days remaining until I finally say goodbye to Taste. Working with the TH group definitely taught me a thing or two.

I heard mass awhile ago and I learnt a lot that I can takeaway to this blindfolded journey. Gist is that we often go with our busy lives until something finally hit us that we would let go of almost everything and look for God's kind-purpose in each of us. It takes courage to enter into unchartered world not knowing how welcoming some people may be. It will be a challenge to take up the cross and follow where the wind is blowing. Or where our feet will lead us.

A moment of pause and reflection is what I need. There comes a point in each of us where we have to think about how we spent our lives and how we should continue bearing in mind God's purpose for us. And that is what I will be embarking on soon.

crossroads

there will always be a time that you have to decide whats best for you. a thought that needs more than hundred times to think about. i am still contemplating if its the best decision. then my decision tree branches out into several more options..

dark clouds roll by and makes it difficult to decide. now im having headaches and i think i just have to sleep this one through.

a clearer mind the next few days and hoping a sign or two will appear. i cant be making hast conclusions now. i hope i can make this through..

goodbye pyrmont

Another milestone for 2012 as i left Pyrmont - a place i have lived more than two years.

As I go back to the old familiar road, Eastwood. I can't help but look through days ahead. Just a matter of time passing and i'd begin a new life. Embarking towards uncertainty. Gets scary but exciting nonetheless.

As for my postop condition, I am 80-85% better. It was tested and stretched to its limits yesterday as I battle with the uber slow removalists. I end up carrying most of 'em and still paying $300 with work unfinished. Credits to Roi and Sam for helping me through all this.

Going back, I think that to make 100% recovery I need my family to take care of me. Hence, my decision to flyoff in few weeks time. And for once I don't think about work and its consequences. one thing I've learnt from this ordeal is to prioritise health among others. Work comes last..

the painful poison of unforgiveness

I've seen how friendships, relationships crumble. It is disheartening to see the pain suffered and carried out without any resolution. It felt good being an ambassador to my friends to let them at least talk about it, lessen the pain and open the door and move on. On the same note, I cannot understand how a person can be unforgiving, relentless and can abandon you - just like that. It pains me to see how everything is thrown away. I believe that if you let it pass for more than 24 hours and you have said your amends. The apologies will evaporate in the air, cease and never will be spoken again. Or at least would never be forgotten. A stain that will not be easily erased. For what its worth — means is nothing and absurdity is what I call it.