Sunday, June 14, 2026

Prologue

The earliest memory of my childhood was when I went to Kindergarten. I recall vividly the enthusiasm of wearing my tiger backpack and holding my blue smurf-themed lunchbox. My white socks was knee high and I had the smirk of a boy so eager to learn and make friends.

I studied at a private pre-school with only a dozen students in a home like school. It was a 20 minute walk and I recall that I was always scared of walking from home to school. I notice a rather large kitten or maybe it was a Bundy dog that in my mind I pictured as a roaring lion. Then again, maybe it was feed through my mind so I don't wander by myself and always wait for my yaya to fetch me from school.

I recall being a shy kid who is socially awkward. I have 2 close friends, Derek and Jerome. They both were my schoolmates while Jerome was living two houses down ours. Derek is my best friend back then. We use to hangout after class while we wait for our turn to go home. I remember sharing various bubble gum and learnt how to make big bubble that eventually bursted in our face.

Our teacher is Miss Beth. She was very patient and really knows how to control the chaos in teaching kindergarten. It was fun and I did learn how to count and say my ABCs. I took pride in finishing kinder with a medal for being the Most Obedient. Later, I was told that everyone had one. So being obedient was probably my strongest trait growing up.


Dysfunctional Lego

The bitter reality hit with such precision that I was blindly been going through it all naive how it eventually will strike me when I least expected it.

I was enduring it for so long that the decay started to manifest. It is my undoing in the end that I had no more defences left under my arsenal.

How does it resolve itself? Question that I am still pondering. The present is hazy and the future is now hard to imagine. 

I know that one's spirit is strong that I can wither the storm and all will be well. Time is my ally and hope it brings healing to my wounded soul.