Anticipation and Excitement

I can't believe that I will be going home after nearly a year. I left Manila still troubled on how I am going to find my way to the direction that would make me happy. It was a struggle and the things that I've been longing to happen did not immediately emerge. It took some time, effort and patience before it slowly materialised.

Now that I'm heading back home for eight short days. I have to make a difference. Inasmuch as I wanted to plan ahead. I would want to remain spontaneous. It differs from the previous times I normally go home. This time I've got limited resources, both time and money. So I shall endeavour to find ways to seek happiness in priceless ways.

I won't deny that I feel this sense of excitement. The feeling is indescribable especially when you were preoccupied with so much things and the day suddenly arrives.

On another note, it was my first time seating on the Upper Deck of SG's A380. Its much better than the Main Deck, simply because its isolated. I was lucky enough to move to a cluster of seats, which was not occupied. Hence, I can sit like I am on business class (without the Champagne, of course).

the irreversible spell

it dawned on me that the consequences of our actions would impact our lives in subtle ways that affects our aspirations.

the fragments of a broken glass that shattered from an adverse force might later bleed the soles of our sensitive feet.

unmistaken that we thoroughly removed the debris of the wreckage, the unseen could even hurt us more. deeper.

later on we realise what seemingly we should have done.

but its too late as the irreversible spell can harm us in ways we have not fathomed it to be.

An Opportunity?

It has been two months of working with this new role and can I just tell you that the passion still burns. Given that I have been enjoying my work and still a lot of promises of growth. I just couldn't let it go. Not just yet.

I received an email from my French boss and he's been telling me about a better opportunity. I have to think twice. Yet again the pay is better. On the other hand I have already built my reputation with the current job. I couldn't just abandon ship. And it is against my own professional ethics. Or so I think it is.

But I always remember that opportunities only knock but once. I let my instinct decide for me then. Hence I said I am interested in discussing this job further. Just what 'Blink' taught me. The stupid book has some sense, I reckon. Might as well utilise what I've learned before completely throwing it in the bin.

Let us cross the bridge when we get there. At this point, the first step is to entertain the idea of a brighter road. And I shall completely step out of this gloomy cobwebs of uncertainties.

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Complete Freedom

A breather, really.
Always something that bothers me.
Haunts me every night.
Last night it scared the hell out of me.
What they have done is completely unconscionable.

I've been meaning to completely move.
Resolve discrepancies thats has always been unknown.
Got a new one and i feel better.
More prospects and hoping for a brighter care free banking.
But still got something evil tucked under my sleeves.

echoes from the distant shore

waves splashing incessantly
as i was sitting on the shore
it pulled me away and i began to drift farther
towards the limitless vast of the sea

not minding what i had left out
i rummaged an unchartered territory
feeling the adventure of this new found being
i have quenched and found the joys from within

mission: self-reconnaissance

i push harder
it wont budge a bit
the weight i am carrying
i just cant fathom.

i cant believe i am at this place
still floundering helplessly
to make it work
seemingly inconceivable.

all efforts are futile
no logical reason why
no fusion to help me on this struggle
no reassurance. nothing.

untitled ii

A lot has changed since last time I put an entry to my website. I've been handling the pressure of a new role, managing my PR on both old and new superiors, and of course not missing out on the fun side to keep me sane.

17 days can be that long really but here are some points worth sharing:

Finally settled in Pyrmont, half of my boxes were opened but I am still stressed on where to put the rest of my stuff;

The 'Takeovers' arrived but still beset with hardships as I struggle double jobs. Let's just say its pro-bono service and to uplift my reputation;

Easter break. Time to reflect, revive and unstress.

Finally, I've booked my short-trip home. My uber excitement can't be explained. So my one-week stay in Manila would be the quickest escape from work before the surge of busy season takes place.

Twingeing of my left foot which was caused by a quick zap of chair on my toenail. I kissed it and still praying that my toenail will survive the horrific encounter.

Going back to reading. The mood to read resurfaced when my friend lent me her book. Look me in the Eye is the title. Very touching.

Movie mania is still up. Been watching every Tues still. Latest one i saw was 'Shutter Island'. I like it. Did a review on my FB page.

I lost my Prada sunnies and it sucks. big time.

My creative mind vanished alongside with logic and reason. The obvious evidence is - the first time I posted 'Untitled' after another.